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He had healthy enough body concepts that had to be minimized to give him the symptoms, and this was done by reactivating beliefs he had “grown out of” before his symptoms. His mother gave him the idea that he was not graceful, for example, and this idea was reactivated. He was not allowed to take physical education because he was “not strong enough, and too high strung” when he was in high school. He was told not to run, but walk, to slow down because it was too dangerous to go fast, because he was too nervous. Now those beliefs, which he had dispensed with, were reactivated as aids, and they are the ones that now must be tackled.

So he was keeping the terms of the old contract. In the meantime you had learned so much, and so had he, but he still interpreted what he learned in the line of those old beliefs. He now realizes he has what he wanted—a creative framework in which to exist, with some financial independence. But he is now faced with body beliefs that have been built up as a result of the previous conflicts, and those are what you have to combat.

There was some resentment against you, for he could not accept what he considered as a sacrifice on your part in jobs throughout your life, and yet he was angry because you would not do, he thought, what he had done—try to do your creative best, and then force the marketplace to take it. So if you had a job he felt you were sacrificing, but if you did not then he expected you to paint your best, and make the world take it, and pay for it.

He believes now that he is in a pretty fair position, one he can happily accept creatively and financially. He has also learned along the way. It was not really great wealth, but some acceptable framework of financial security he was after, and some assurance that his books would bring him this, along with the freedom of creativity as he understood it.

Ruburt is left with the body image that he acquired. He is afraid that he cannot undo what he has done. He can indeed, but he needs to develop confidence in that belief, and each physical achievement is of great benefit.

[...] “Slow down because you are going too fast,” (was) told him in his youth; he reactivated those ideas, interpreting them to mean that he must slow down in order to produce mature work. [...] He had been told he would burn himself out, so he came into his late 30’s and tried to slow down. [...] He can trust himself and his own rhythms however.

[...] He became angry, and still is, when you show normal criticism of Prentice and their dealings with our books, or his, because he feels that you do not really understand how difficult it is to market creative work, and since you do not sell your paintings you should not criticize his admittedly worrisome efforts. The fact that some of your criticisms are justified makes him worry the more, that he is not doing as good a job as he should.

The vitamins do help combat the stress he places upon the body, but only while he works with these sessions and his beliefs. Your ages were involved, in that he felt you had only so much time. Remind him that the ideas he reactivated about the body may have had some application to a child, but none to a woman.

He has been using his will to put his body down. He must realize—and he does not yet—that the will can be just as effective in releasing his body. In reminding him of this you can also be of help, for he was afraid that his will was powerless in that regard.

[...] That is, he took on the symptoms because he believed that physical restraint was the best way to insure his concentration. [...] For creative, financial and other present reasons, however, he felt that stern disciplinary measures had to be taken.