“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Ruburt’s (very relaxed) condition today was the result of Friday’s news (about the very good sales of all of Jane’s books), and the body was ridding itself of a tension. Ruburt is aware that those purposes served by his physical condition are quickly vanishing. That is, he took on the symptoms because he believed that physical restraint was the best way to insure his concentration. I do not want to duplicate material given. For creative, financial and other present reasons, however, he felt that stern disciplinary measures had to be taken.

He believes now that he is in a pretty fair position, one he can happily accept creatively and financially. He has also learned along the way. It was not really great wealth, but some acceptable framework of financial security he was after, and some assurance that his books would bring him this, along with the freedom of creativity as he understood it.

There was some resentment against you, for he could not accept what he considered as a sacrifice on your part in jobs throughout your life, and yet he was angry because you would not do, he thought, what he had done—try to do your creative best, and then force the marketplace to take it. So if you had a job he felt you were sacrificing, but if you did not then he expected you to paint your best, and make the world take it, and pay for it.

Now on his part it was precisely that conflict that got him into difficulty, and that brought about the ideas of “work.” He became angry, and still is, when you show normal criticism of Prentice and their dealings with our books, or his, because he feels that you do not really understand how difficult it is to market creative work, and since you do not sell your paintings you should not criticize his admittedly worrisome efforts. The fact that some of your criticisms are justified makes him worry the more, that he is not doing as good a job as he should.

He will not brook interference from anyone, including Richard Bach, in terms of dealing directly with the publisher of his own works. Your part in Personal Reality has been important, however, and the notes particularly, as they contribute. He wanted you both to be in a position where you could hold your heads up creatively and financially.

So he was keeping the terms of the old contract. In the meantime you had learned so much, and so had he, but he still interpreted what he learned in the line of those old beliefs. He now realizes he has what he wanted—a creative framework in which to exist, with some financial independence. But he is now faced with body beliefs that have been built up as a result of the previous conflicts, and those are what you have to combat.

While he is adjusting to this, let him take 3 hours a day, including Saturday, in which he is to be creatively free. He will do more “work” then than in 6 determined hours. Each day now, I want him to take his walk, even if it is only around the house. The corner is fine, but around the house is better than none; and to sit down for bowel movements.

You are both heading for financial ease. The books will again do better. This fact alone will help Ruburt’s condition. Your own plans are unconsciously made. You will contribute creatively and financially. While you have been concerned with Ruburt, unconsciously in certain terms you have solved creative dilemmas, and soon opportunities will present themselves beside those you will make.