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Sumari, particularly in the beginning, and poetry in general were dubious from a work-sales standpoint, and therefore suspect in writing time.

His attitude in its own way is the same as you mentioned earlier this evening, in that he believes he is lucky not to have to work out, and so must make what he is doing pay. Your talk about the time clock got through to him in the past only too well. The amount of time is not important, but his attitude toward it is.

You told him once he could not punch a time clock. He has been trying to show you that he can. He felt that with his natural spontaneity great discipline must be used, as given before. Working home meant working home, so he shut down impulses that might make him become distracted ,or want to go out when others were working.

Breaking schedule brought some of this to consciousness. It was carried to such an extreme finally that often, at least, his best creativity came after hours. The schedule became nearly an obsession. It had to be broken. If he chooses to work hourly again, it will be a new fresh conscious decision. For both of you however, you must understand that work was the rule for a long time.

He felt therefore that he had to make his way of life pay. He used to feel that you were accusing him when you said that he did not know what it was to punch a time clock, meaning that he did not have the guts or the ability. At the same time you had not chosen that source either but very briefly. Creative work was his joy, but that creativity also had more and more connotations that applied to work and money.

It had to pay off. It had to be scheduled, and even the time within the writing hours was watched so that it was productive. At the same time distractions were minimized, impulses to move away from the desk cut down, and day-dreaming, dream recall, and out-of-bodies became not business, not-work. Naps in the day meant laziness. If you were working out, Ruburt thought, you could not do this.

The improvements do show that his beliefs are changing, and some of his anger today was simply energy that he has been withholding from himself for fear that it would not be correctly used. He is feeling impulses to go out for example for walks that he did not feel before, and be more physically active, while at the same time he does not yet feel able to perform to his satisfaction.

(11:15.)It is extremely important that he not concentrate upon the problem—underline 10 times. Your idea about paintings and your list of correspondents is excellent. Ruburt’s intuitions will also help you there. The books and Seven will do even better. Tell him he has no worries about Aspects that are justified.

If he thinks in terms of doing what he wants to do, even if he assigns time to the pursuits, he is better off than labeling anything work. Out-of-bodies, writing and spontaneous impressions are all things he likes to do, but some fell inside his work category and some did not. He likes challenges. Then have him “work” with them, and use them to his advantage. But do not overdo it, as is his inclination at times when he thinks in terms of absolutes.

For this week have him see how many times he can go out by himself or with you on a walk, but not a walk around the block or to the corner—a walk around the house will do. That is important. He is to continue my book, and make his moods known to you, as today, for you helped him.

This is bootleg material, so have him see how may times he can sit on the john, rather than have it that he must always do so every time, or not try at all. It is not a crisis if he tries a different pair of shoes and feels uncomfortable. Simply have him try again. It is important that he go with you shopping, as he has, but also that he walk outside even if he begins very slowly. If he cannot go around the block to start with, he feels despondent, but the habit of walking will grow as he gives it a chance.

I am seeing to your mother’s comfort. Psychically she has met Daisy (the deceased wife of my mother’s brother Frank), and is in connection with Ruburt. You have friends because of your work and association with me, and your mother will be well cared for. She is psychically more a part of you than your father. He went in a different direction, as per material given at that time. Tell Ruburt that others helped his mother as he helps yours.