“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He does feel a strong responsibility to hold his own financially. Poverty in youth was counterbalanced by ideas of wealth because of the father’s background. Ruburt hoped his talent would bring him some kind of magical translation of his father’s supposed wealth. Working alone had a magic, yet while money came from someplace else—working out—the weight of financial desire did not rest upon creativity.

His attitude in its own way is the same as you mentioned earlier this evening, in that he believes he is lucky not to have to work out, and so must make what he is doing pay. Your talk about the time clock got through to him in the past only too well. The amount of time is not important, but his attitude toward it is.

You told him once he could not punch a time clock. He has been trying to show you that he can. He felt that with his natural spontaneity great discipline must be used, as given before. Working home meant working home, so he shut down impulses that might make him become distracted ,or want to go out when others were working.

He felt therefore that he had to make his way of life pay. He used to feel that you were accusing him when you said that he did not know what it was to punch a time clock, meaning that he did not have the guts or the ability. At the same time you had not chosen that source either but very briefly. Creative work was his joy, but that creativity also had more and more connotations that applied to work and money.

You considered them in a good light, and remembered what I said about absolutes. Ruburt however, sensing some improvement, wanted instant, complete recovery, and while he handled this better than in the past, tell him, nevertheless at his end he used absolutes again. Tell him to keep that in mind.

Your morning behavior, again, and behavior in general, has been of great help. His study of my book will be of greater help. His ideas concerning out-of-bodies are important. He is waiting for the Bantam check, which will come through. He is impatient because he likes me working on a book for him. (Humorously.)

The schedule itself, with the beliefs he held, blinded him to the impulses because he would not allow them to emerge. I want him to continue with my book, and when he reaches the portions on point of power and natural hypnosis I will give him instructions so that both of you together spend five minutes a day at each exercise. This will double their effects.

(11:15.)It is extremely important that he not concentrate upon the problem—underline 10 times. Your idea about paintings and your list of correspondents is excellent. Ruburt’s intuitions will also help you there. The books and Seven will do even better. Tell him he has no worries about Aspects that are justified.

If he thinks in terms of doing what he wants to do, even if he assigns time to the pursuits, he is better off than labeling anything work. Out-of-bodies, writing and spontaneous impressions are all things he likes to do, but some fell inside his work category and some did not. He likes challenges. Then have him “work” with them, and use them to his advantage. But do not overdo it, as is his inclination at times when he thinks in terms of absolutes.

For this week have him see how many times he can go out by himself or with you on a walk, but not a walk around the block or to the corner—a walk around the house will do. That is important. He is to continue my book, and make his moods known to you, as today, for you helped him.

This is bootleg material, so have him see how may times he can sit on the john, rather than have it that he must always do so every time, or not try at all. It is not a crisis if he tries a different pair of shoes and feels uncomfortable. Simply have him try again. It is important that he go with you shopping, as he has, but also that he walk outside even if he begins very slowly. If he cannot go around the block to start with, he feels despondent, but the habit of walking will grow as he gives it a chance.

Ruburt has a condition brought about my inhibiting physical impulses, and therefore body motion. The condition can be reversed by encouraging body motion. The beliefs behind the curtailment are now being laid bare, and the body beliefs themselves are also beginning to be tackled. The negative suggestions in such books as the ones Ruburt is considering buying would not help him.

I suggest, if he wants to, that he use the pendulum, which is utilizing his own body’s knowledge, asking if any foods upset him. Refraining from those while working as I suggest with beliefs is all right, since he is using his own abilities. Do you see the difference?