“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Some of the difficulty began when Ruburt started to connect writing with work. Remember his literal mind, and also that he does sometimes operate with extremes. Work was not play, then. It involved making money, definite hours, a routine and also adult status. He felt he needed that.

All of his ideas of responsibility became attached to the word “work.” In the past as given, he wanted to prove to you that he was working at home while you worked outside. Later when money became involved, then for a while fun writing had to come after working hours.

When he felt you both needed money, the work aspects were magnified. He did not dare to drop them. He had seen your family’s reaction to you as an artist. Work must bring money in that context.

Each day became a battle to turn play into work, structure it, and make it personally and socially acceptable. Yet creativity kept escaping the work definition—in my books, Seven and Sumari; and he even felt guilty about Sumari poetry in work hours, for it might not fulfill work’s requirements, produce money and so forth.

Your own speaking about distractions, chores contributed. Your habits are fairly, though not entirely, native to your nature. They were not to Ruburt’s. He felt he did need discipline, however, as given in other session. The worries about money, age, all contributed so that he tried to work harder.