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Now I told you that when issues are brought out into the open, there are certain conscious stresses and strains that earlier were not apparent, but hidden. The morning issue is finally rising into the significance that was buried before, and not dealt with. Your presence and help have been highly supportive, and also as I planned, your presence has made Ruburt more aware of his morning behavior and thoughts and sometimes he has tried to verbalize them.

Your efforts show clearly your intent to help; again, more important than you earlier realized. But in barely a week he has been forced to face that morning situation, to question it as he really did not before.

He was not walking properly by a long shot, but he wanted to get up, and he walked as well barefooted as with shoes. You were surprised, and voiced approval. He began to write notes for his book as soon as breakfast was over, and before the table was cleared. He felt suddenly comparatively free.

After dinner he wrote several more pages. Yet all in all he had worked a little over three hours. In the material he wrote there was information applied to himself, incomplete, but I will put it in order; and it has to do with the nature of creativity and his beliefs.

Either take a break or get our friend a beer, or both, but the session is important....

Now I suggested the definite hours, knowing his position, knowing that he would begin to see that while any activity of course takes a certain amount of time, that his creative work will be judged not according to the hours spent on it but the yield.

When the work idea is carried to extremes than he is not even free in his so-called work time, because then he inhibits what he thinks of as nonwork ideas, and therefore much creativity. He has usually buried spontaneous desires to do other things, particularly in your apartment, so there were frequent dilemmas, finding of course physical expression in symptoms. There has been some improvement physically however since we began the latest group of sessions; but spasmodic.

Inspiration and creativity he felt he could trust, but never felt he could trust his working capacity in the way he thought of work. At the same time other activities became taboo as not-work, so it was “wrong” to putter about the house in his work hours, and equally wrong to work after hours, when people who worked should be free.

He chose writing initially because of the spontaneity it offered, but his ideas of work directly conflicted with this. A writer could take a stroll anytime. Someone who worked had to keep at the job. A writer could make love in the afternoon. Someone who worked had to inhibit such impulses.

Now that is enough for this evening, but highly important. You can have more at our next session. You can have more material on Jerusalem or Christ now, or when you want it. You can have the Christ book when you want it. But the same applies for any other material you want from me.

You followed the ethic to a larger degree than you realized, yet often in reverse fashion. You picked up the idea of work but frowned upon certain aspects of creativity as not safe or profitable—as your father’s creative, inventive aspects did not produce financially in your family, and in terms of work did not pay off in social or family terms.

That is enough. You cannot keep up with me, but the correlations that exist, and the contrasts, between both of your fathers, are significant in how you handle your creativity.

Ruburt has always tried to adapt to your natural schedule. To some degree your own natural schedule is also the result of your own beliefs about your creativity. There is much more here, but I had better stop.

(“Thank you.” 11:34. I was going to read the session to Jane, but she said, several times, that she was getting more material on me. Finally Seth returned at 11:40.)

Your creature feelings toward night, dawn and dusk, have much more to do with inspiration, though a painting, once inspired, may then take so many hours to execute. But your idea of specific work time automatically divides that time according to your beliefs from other times when you may be shopping, or doing something else far divorced from work.

I am pulling an Oversoul Seven on you, but I am gong to give you an idea for a painting, in the next three days, waking or sleeping—I will not tell you which—but I want you to be playfully alert to it. When you were doing commercial art you were utilizing some important aspects of creativity, though you were not matured enough to use them except in limited form.