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Ruburt saw how being away from his desk and the house worked creatively to his advantage, as per the ride to your mother’s (in Centerville), and the earlier walk around the block. There is no doubt of the many improvements, made up of a series of inner improvements that do not show as yet, except as the time element presents itself—i.e., he gets over here (apartment 5) quicker and easier.

Ruburt’s father, to Ruburt, meant laxness, relaxation to the extreme, without drive or fire, responsibility or control. Ruburt’s mother meant will, drive, power, for she had power over the household and over Ruburt. But that power went nowhere, for Ruburt’s father was physically free while his mother was not. Ruburt thought he had to make a choice (louder). If will and power meant relative immobility but purpose—and purpose was what he had—then in the past he chose that above what he thought of as laxness, relaxation, and physical freedom that might mean frittering away ability, a relaxation in which nothing was accomplished.

His parents represented two extremes. His mother represented will untempered by spontaneity or relaxation, quite frankly a will for power over others. She made other people supply her wants, and was a despot. She was filled with energy however, and purpose.

Ruburt’s father represented the other extreme, with no firm purpose, seemingly driven willy-nilly, and accomplishing nothing. Both parents could be highly destructive, however—Ruburt’s father when he was drunk, and Ruburt’s mother generally.

Now he is free to appreciate and use the energy shown to him by his mother in condensed dramatic fashion, tempered and freed by the free-flowing air of the father, and the physical mobility and sense of exploration that he represented.

The Christian-Science background with the father was also important, for it was this inner belief of the father that did sustain him, and that inclination of the father and his mother (Mattie) that Ruburt chose in his background to temper his own mother’s beliefs and lead him in our direction. The daughter triumphs for the parent, then. The same applies in its own way to each individual, where the conditions and challenges and solutions as well are given in the chosen background. So the way applies in its own way to you.

Your mother represented the opposite in your mind—the emotionally explosive, suffocating immediacy, a female life and earthly ties, social commitment, homey chores and distractions that seemed to be directly opposed to solitary creativity.

We come back to will and freedom, discipline and purpose. Ruburt’s background with his mother and his beliefs in will then merged with your feelings for isolation from your father. Ruburt blocked out emotional spontaneity, feeling that his father was lax. You blocked out emotional spontaneity, feeling that your mother’s was detrimental to creative isolation. At the same time you admired Ruburt’s spontaneity. You trusted it however only because it was merged with creative purpose. He therefore used it only for such purpose, not wanting to frighten you with it otherwise because he loved you so.

Only by self-examination can you see how these issues merge in all areas of your living, and then project the ideas outward for others. Ruburt going out walking goes for both of you. You, relating far better than you even did with others, go out for both of your parents. Your mother knows that.

Encouraging Ruburt’s physical spontaneity now, you symbolically encourage your own inner spontaneity, and both of you recognize that. Give us a moment.... There are reasons set by you because of the nature of your purpose, so that your best work will come later in your lives. Your mother realizes how she is opening avenues through which you understand more than you did, and she knows that you follow her on journeys of which other family members are ignorant.