“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Ruburt saw how being away from his desk and the house worked creatively to his advantage, as per the ride to your mother’s (in Centerville), and the earlier walk around the block. There is no doubt of the many improvements, made up of a series of inner improvements that do not show as yet, except as the time element presents itself—i.e., he gets over here (apartment 5) quicker and easier.

As he knows the same is happening with the arms, but he is not walking on them, as indeed he has told himself. The dreams were meant to encourage him and to show him that the inner order of events does assure his improvements.

The promise in the dream made by you, that the events (of Jane’s great flexibility)were indeed happening, represented your inner knowledge that he would make it now, and his own realization of the fact, as well as the body’s acknowledgment. The first part of the dream involved excellent physical release and manipulability. The second part concerned new rooms, all rich avenues open to him, both as a result of the release and yet bringing forth the release. The rooms represented exploration, new areas of creativity in which he is even now involved.

The suggestions I gave (in recent sessions) amounted to a “schedule of activities,” calculated to give room to creative and physical expression. Common sense applies. If he dances or cleans the apartment, then his natural impulses are being physically directed in those fashions. He does not have to feel that he must go for his walk when physically he feels like cleaning, for example. The badminton, unless he is in a relaxation period, is excellent, however, and should be maintained because of the opportunity for speed. Now it is the only way he can experience some, except for the swinging of the arms.

In his belief system it seemed to him that to let go was to stop. Therefore relaxation became a dirty word, where nothing was done. In relaxation periods then he is apt to worry. Things will not get done. He feels guilty. He wonders how far along with the relaxation he should go.

Now: each person chooses his parents, accepting in terms of environment and heredity a bank of various characteristics, attitudes and abilities from which he draws in physical life.

Ruburt’s father, to Ruburt, meant laxness, relaxation to the extreme, without drive or fire, responsibility or control. Ruburt’s mother meant will, drive, power, for she had power over the household and over Ruburt. But that power went nowhere, for Ruburt’s father was physically free while his mother was not. Ruburt thought he had to make a choice (louder). If will and power meant relative immobility but purpose—and purpose was what he had—then in the past he chose that above what he thought of as laxness, relaxation, and physical freedom that might mean frittering away ability, a relaxation in which nothing was accomplished.

His parents represented two extremes. His mother represented will untempered by spontaneity or relaxation, quite frankly a will for power over others. She made other people supply her wants, and was a despot. She was filled with energy however, and purpose.

Ruburt chose the parents to see the contrast and learn the best way for him in which purpose could be combined with spontaneity, the will with the spirit. He had to see what both extremes were extremes—not practical or idealistic. All of this applied to his mental, psychic, spiritual, and physical life, and his overall purpose.

Now he is free to appreciate and use the energy shown to him by his mother in condensed dramatic fashion, tempered and freed by the free-flowing air of the father, and the physical mobility and sense of exploration that he represented.

The Christian-Science background with the father was also important, for it was this inner belief of the father that did sustain him, and that inclination of the father and his mother (Mattie) that Ruburt chose in his background to temper his own mother’s beliefs and lead him in our direction. The daughter triumphs for the parent, then. The same applies in its own way to each individual, where the conditions and challenges and solutions as well are given in the chosen background. So the way applies in its own way to you.

We come back to will and freedom, discipline and purpose. Ruburt’s background with his mother and his beliefs in will then merged with your feelings for isolation from your father. Ruburt blocked out emotional spontaneity, feeling that his father was lax. You blocked out emotional spontaneity, feeling that your mother’s was detrimental to creative isolation. At the same time you admired Ruburt’s spontaneity. You trusted it however only because it was merged with creative purpose. He therefore used it only for such purpose, not wanting to frighten you with it otherwise because he loved you so.

He was also afraid of spontaneity not related to creativity because of his feeling that his father went willy-nilly and produced nothing. In solving his dilemma, which was the creative one, the both of you triumph for yourselves and for your parents.