“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Ruburt’s father, to Ruburt, meant laxness, relaxation to the extreme, without drive or fire, responsibility or control. Ruburt’s mother meant will, drive, power, for she had power over the household and over Ruburt. But that power went nowhere, for Ruburt’s father was physically free while his mother was not. Ruburt thought he had to make a choice (louder). If will and power meant relative immobility but purpose—and purpose was what he had—then in the past he chose that above what he thought of as laxness, relaxation, and physical freedom that might mean frittering away ability, a relaxation in which nothing was accomplished.

His parents represented two extremes. His mother represented will untempered by spontaneity or relaxation, quite frankly a will for power over others. She made other people supply her wants, and was a despot. She was filled with energy however, and purpose.

Ruburt’s father represented the other extreme, with no firm purpose, seemingly driven willy-nilly, and accomplishing nothing. Both parents could be highly destructive, however—Ruburt’s father when he was drunk, and Ruburt’s mother generally.

Ruburt chose the parents to see the contrast and learn the best way for him in which purpose could be combined with spontaneity, the will with the spirit. He had to see what both extremes were extremes—not practical or idealistic. All of this applied to his mental, psychic, spiritual, and physical life, and his overall purpose.

We come back to will and freedom, discipline and purpose. Ruburt’s background with his mother and his beliefs in will then merged with your feelings for isolation from your father. Ruburt blocked out emotional spontaneity, feeling that his father was lax. You blocked out emotional spontaneity, feeling that your mother’s was detrimental to creative isolation. At the same time you admired Ruburt’s spontaneity. You trusted it however only because it was merged with creative purpose. He therefore used it only for such purpose, not wanting to frighten you with it otherwise because he loved you so.

Encouraging Ruburt’s physical spontaneity now, you symbolically encourage your own inner spontaneity, and both of you recognize that. Give us a moment.... There are reasons set by you because of the nature of your purpose, so that your best work will come later in your lives. Your mother realizes how she is opening avenues through which you understand more than you did, and she knows that you follow her on journeys of which other family members are ignorant.