“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The arm, by its sudden freedom, also serves as a model to Ruburt consciously, and also for the rest of the body to follow. He is aware of the feeling of freedom consciously, physically, as a portion now of daily experience and comparison. He did not have this before, and so it is highly important symbolically and literally that improvements will continue and be used as a model.

These feelings will also be accompanied by sensations of warmth however, and so should be accepted and recognized as new signs of mobility and action. He can begin to try to feel greater strength now in the right arm, and all improvements on the right side are being picked up by the left.

As I told you in our last session, the original beliefs behind the symptoms have largely vanished. Some are still coming to light. The body condition reflects subsidiary beliefs about the body that he mobilized for the other purposes that now no longer operate.

The hardest part, however, is over, for the sensation of freedom has been physically introduced through the arm into the system—and that message echoes throughout the system. Ruburt no longer believes he needs the symptoms. The condition therefore is beginning to fade. It will not take anything like the same amount of time to vanish as it did to establish itself. There will be sudden improvements on the physical level, as with the arm, but before that occurred there were changes in beliefs. There will be other almost unnoticed improvements that will not show until they “suddenly appear” as a major breakthrough—and these have already begun.

He has done well following my suggestions, particularly going outside. The squatting he performed (last Friday night) should be repeated once daily at least, for it reinforces the idea of letting go with the body.

Badminton or pounding the pillow should definitely be started this week. He is thinking in terms of improvements now, though, and this is an important development. Do not, in your case, over-remind him of what he is “supposed” to do, for he takes this to mean that you do not expect him to do it. He knows well now of your loving concern, and feels your love, and your love-making endeavors are extremely important to both of you.

I want to say something about beliefs that became obvious to him today concerning time and “work.” The ideas of work have been largely covered. His beliefs about time are important in relationship to his work ideas. As he noted, the belief was that he must be the young American poet, or the young American writer. Now we are dealing with an old belief system once shared to a large extent by you both.

In that system he saw you nearly ten years older than he, and in those terms unsatisfied; so he must work all the harder against time, and cut out everything else. In that system, as he developed it, there was no time for leisurely meals, showers, shopping trips or mundane enjoyments—only the work was important. Only it would survive. The day in which it was produced would vanish and be nothing—only the work would survive as a monument. The trivialities and moods, the feelings of morning and twilight would be extinguished—so he thought as you told him, and so against many of his natural instincts he tried to obey.

So the day became nothing more than a framework in which he must work, and in which all relationships had little value except as they were interpreted through work. He became pursued by time, so that in his world there literally was no time for anything else.

At the same “time” his body kept trying to assert its privileges and natural life, but he saw it as a tool to work. He understands now a good deal of this, but I want to put it in form for him. Even his writing time therefore became frenzied. He did not live in the moment, or know his body’s present reality. Sensations and impulse were deadened, unless they could be translated into “work.”

Now this did finally become so reflected that feeling shunted aside threatened his work, and he finally recognized this. He was afraid of out-of-bodies precisely because he did not have a good enough footing in the present. He did not have the needed support.

The body’s weight was kept down for the same reasons, because he felt according to those old beliefs, that the body’s sustenance and substance in physical reality was not important in regard to his work. These ideas are also vanishing now. The body with weight and substance might be unmanageable, filled with too much energy, and therefore want the physical activity he thought he must deny it for his work. It is not a matter of what he ate, but chemically what he did with the nourishment.

Any panic he now recognizes having to do with time represents left-over old obsessions about the necessity to work with a time limit. Even in those limited terms you see he realized that his achievements and production are in his terms now sufficient; but he must move out of those limiting ideas, and he is.

Each person’s personal reality has the same kind of unity. There is nothing that does not fit into the picture. There were achievements and joys along the way, and these should not be forgotten or minimized. They were all the result of beliefs also. Ruburt believed that they were only achieved by neglecting the body. He realizes now that the body’s reality is the framework through which all must come in this life, and that limiting its vitality will eventually end up limiting all experience and all “work.”

Now he is lucky, in those terms, for many never understand the pattern of their beliefs. His creative mobility is dependent upon his physical mobility now in this life—something he did not understand before.

He still does not completely understand the nature of what he calls Sumari time, in relationship with inspiration. This concept is extremely valuable however, in freeing him from old time ideas.

His idea of changing the present through altering pictures in the past is also pertinent and good. Have him continue the practice as he began it—it aids in understanding beliefs, and it does alter the past and therefore the present.

Give us a moment.... He should finish my book, then begin it again, this time following the exercises as he needs them. As mentioned, I will have you both do the point of power. Beer in any quantity should now be avoided. It is all right on your night out. These are aids only.

For now he is right to avoid citrus. The vitamin C makes up for that. Tell him to begin cutting down white sugar in coffee, or use brown sugar. Cutting down is better. Apricot is better than pear juice. These are simply aids that will later be unnecessary.

The sitting down, whether on a chair or the toilet, has to do with the fear of letting the body go. Where the toilet is concerned the ideas of time enter in, where he did not want to take time out. Everything as given last week to be continued then, with the added suggestions. These are geared to his condition.

Make sure you “suitably” recognize his improvements. There will be more of them. But again, periods of readjustment which should be accepted as such. The mobility of the fingers is much better when typing—something he did not mention.

His dream recall will also improve, because he feels more secure in physical areas.