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Give us a moment.... His remark following receipt of the check brought up the final clarification of beliefs. The connections were given as stated also.

The area of concentration now however should be not upon the body but upon daily living, his writing and your plans. (The Nature of) Personal Reality quite assures your financial situation for some time to come. One point I want to mention: Ruburt’s mother tried to escape poverty through the calculated unrelenting use of her beauty, and it did not work. Ruburt in his own way tried to escape poverty through the use of his brains, and he was afraid that that was not going to work either. Ruburt’s brains however gave him much more leeway than his mother’s beauty gave her, and his intellect came with a counterpart—an intuitional and psychic counterpart that enriched it and kept it from becoming bitter or even ingrown.

At the same time the early beliefs were there, and were mentioned to some extent along with other issues. These also had to do with the unremitting purpose of work. In the meantime his intellect and intuitive abilities both discovered that the daily joy of living was important—as important as “work” or money.

For a time however a conglomeration of beliefs merged, so that he felt that he had to drive himself unremittingly: and this meant, to him, imposing disciplines as given earlier. The fears of time, the early fears that made him want to escape poverty, the feeling that all eggs must be put in one basket, and his reaction to you and your circumstances—these were all connected.

In his twenties he could well combine the idea of little money with his writing because he realized it might be that kind of profession, but he became frightened as the years passed. I am simply putting this in consecutive fashion, emphasizing certain points for convenience’s sake now. The check, even in those terms, you see, was important. It is being assimilated along those lines. Then he will be able to feel completely free from that particular kind of long-term charged reaction.

I want it understood that money was not the primary goal, that his early drive to escape his environment was based on the false idea that worth was dependent upon your status. Being a writer would give him status even if he did not make money, though he hoped to.

The development of his psychic abilities frightened him, for the very simple reason that in his mind a psychic did not have the same kind of status. The writing abilities were always one manifestation of his own strong psychic nature, however, and his growth as a personality required the merging of both if even the writer was to succeed. All of this has been happening. (Intently.) His improvements are the natural result of a synthesis of personality and abilities and a reorganization of beliefs.

By all means both of you should rejoice in the improvements as they occur. The feeling of trust, emphasized, will help Ruburt so that he does not become too impatient. When you go out in public he immediately thinks in terms of absolutes, and feels himself inadequate as a result, and his improvements seem trivial in comparison to what he wants.