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The area of concentration now however should be not upon the body but upon daily living, his writing and your plans. (The Nature of) Personal Reality quite assures your financial situation for some time to come. One point I want to mention: Ruburt’s mother tried to escape poverty through the calculated unrelenting use of her beauty, and it did not work. Ruburt in his own way tried to escape poverty through the use of his brains, and he was afraid that that was not going to work either. Ruburt’s brains however gave him much more leeway than his mother’s beauty gave her, and his intellect came with a counterpart—an intuitional and psychic counterpart that enriched it and kept it from becoming bitter or even ingrown.

For a time however a conglomeration of beliefs merged, so that he felt that he had to drive himself unremittingly: and this meant, to him, imposing disciplines as given earlier. The fears of time, the early fears that made him want to escape poverty, the feeling that all eggs must be put in one basket, and his reaction to you and your circumstances—these were all connected.

In his twenties he could well combine the idea of little money with his writing because he realized it might be that kind of profession, but he became frightened as the years passed. I am simply putting this in consecutive fashion, emphasizing certain points for convenience’s sake now. The check, even in those terms, you see, was important. It is being assimilated along those lines. Then he will be able to feel completely free from that particular kind of long-term charged reaction.

He realizes well now that money is not all that important, yet the old beliefs were so entangled that he had to prove to himself that it was not so important after he achieved it. Otherwise he would always tell himself that he believed money basically unimportant because he was not able to achieve it.

I want it understood that money was not the primary goal, that his early drive to escape his environment was based on the false idea that worth was dependent upon your status. Being a writer would give him status even if he did not make money, though he hoped to.

By all means both of you should rejoice in the improvements as they occur. The feeling of trust, emphasized, will help Ruburt so that he does not become too impatient. When you go out in public he immediately thinks in terms of absolutes, and feels himself inadequate as a result, and his improvements seem trivial in comparison to what he wants.

A clear understanding of the point of power will clear that up, that seeming discrepancy between what he wants and what he has. The improvements constantly show him that what he has is changing for the better and ever-approaching the flexibility he wants. I suggest your bars, and I bid you a fond good evening. Unless you have questions.