“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

What was not said is this: he felt that no one with whom he had been intimately involved believed in him as a person, or trusted his intrinsic value, except for yourself. Your meeting and love helped reinforce all of his own creative aspects and rearroused his faith in himself. While he had that strong faith in himself, the other tendencies, including the false prophet ideas, lost all but the most minute significance.

There is material, buried in the files, that says clearly that our sessions began for many reasons—your joint desire to know, for example, and to probe together into the nature of reality. They also began because Ruburt most desperately wanted you to be well, and tuned into a greater source than usually available to that end.

Now I know what questions you have, so give me a moment.

(“It’s nothing great. What do you think about the news he got about sales this week, because of the Time Magazine article?”)

You already know what I told you, and it still applies.

What about it?

It can work or it can be disastrous, then. You make your reality. There is no reason it cannot work, and well, with the proper attitudes. On your part, the relative greater importance of such a project to you over that of the writer (for Gallery) means that your attitudes will predominate. Do you follow me?

Now you knew Ruburt’s stubbornness. You knew he would insist upon drawing you out in precisely those ways that you desired and feared, so both of you were quite aware of what was going on.

He felt ashamed of what he thought you thought of as trivial unimportant matters, homey concerns. He became ashamed of them. Fear of childbirth was also involved. He feels you both can be more lenient now since the possibilities have dropped some: because of his age he is less likely to become pregnant, than when he was, say, 30.

He also felt sexually that what you wanted least was true spontaneity, for that could lead him to forget himself enough to forget proper birth control methods. You did not trust intercourse anymore than he did.

You can get around this however, using methods given earlier, and reassurance. He will be afraid for a while that you will turn away from him again. It has never been what you said, so much as your unexpressed communications that bothered him. What is said you can face, work out, and encounter.

You use the excuse of work, both of you, to isolate yourselves from other people while you did crossword puzzles, and little work. You isolated yourselves and did not put to advantage much—though some—of what I told you. You saw that when you did not rely on your work, you enjoyed few creature comforts. Do you follow me?