“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The session contained information about vital aspects of Ruburt’s personality, but given in your terms at a particular period of time. More intimate material concerning your own relationship could not be given then, of the kind given later. He would not allow it.

What was not said is this: he felt that no one with whom he had been intimately involved believed in him as a person, or trusted his intrinsic value, except for yourself. Your meeting and love helped reinforce all of his own creative aspects and rearroused his faith in himself. While he had that strong faith in himself, the other tendencies, including the false prophet ideas, lost all but the most minute significance.

It is true that for some time he then projected portions of his own overly-conscientious portions upon you, and then reacted; but it is also true that you had schooled yourself to display displeasure through a heavy silence, and were afraid of displaying your happier, sunnier emotions.

You do have strong perfectionist leanings. They are, whether you know it or not, also projected by you upon Ruburt, so that you do see his physical condition as an outrage, not only literally but symbolically. This is something quite beside your normal urge to see your wife in good health.

He felt—this is an answer to another question—that there was a veiled threat involved in my remark that I would not be dispensed with. There was none. He felt angry that often it seemed you trusted me but not him. He was never in danger of any severe emotional or mental difficulties. He would always cope—and in the main creatively, if unconventionally or bizarrely.

Your location. You gave it more negative ones than Ruburt, but each of you felt it was all you could afford, and poor at that. The contrast between your last stay there, and that one, and in your relationship, was too obvious for comfort.

You do not believe me now when I tell you that you have always exaggerated your situation and Ruburt’s as far as its negative aspects are concerned—but you have, and this has been part of the difficulty.

(We thought the session was over, but began discussing Richard Bach’s postcard of November 10, mentioning that he could accept a reincarnational hint or two. To ge some data for Dick, Jane went back into trance at 11:00.)