“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Both events are important—the death of his father and the mailing of the book. He felt that you were strongly dissatisfied with the circumstances surrounding the book: you told him it was marred because of his missed sessions; the fact that it was accepted instead of another book (Dreams, etc.). And the Nebene characteristics that came out strongly as you worked with the details toward the book’s end.

Now you knew Ruburt’s stubbornness. You knew he would insist upon drawing you out in precisely those ways that you desired and feared, so both of you were quite aware of what was going on.

It is because you both are such loners basically, creatively and in normal physical life, that Ruburt realized that you must have a strong and vital, open and warm system of communication with each other. It also means that you alone in the main must meet each other’s emotional needs. They do not find fulfillment from a large family in daily contact, for example, or from a large group of friends.

He felt ashamed of what he thought you thought of as trivial unimportant matters, homey concerns. He became ashamed of them. Fear of childbirth was also involved. He feels you both can be more lenient now since the possibilities have dropped some: because of his age he is less likely to become pregnant, than when he was, say, 30.

Ruburt would not allow that to happen any more, for both of your sakes. He would not hurt himself either beyond a certain point. Hence his just-surfacing thought last week about separate apartments. Beyond all this he also knew he had to consider the separate apartments while knowing they would not be necessary. Do you follow me?

You use the excuse of work, both of you, to isolate yourselves from other people while you did crossword puzzles, and little work. You isolated yourselves and did not put to advantage much—though some—of what I told you. You saw that when you did not rely on your work, you enjoyed few creature comforts. Do you follow me?

The easy, spontaneous, daily, trivial, give-and-take was not there. Both of you knew it. You took approximately the same amount of time to do your puzzles as you usually spent working, to fill in the gap. Does that answer your question?