“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(This morning Jane and I embarked on a new program in an effort to track down the origin of her symptoms. They appear to be worse and we’re vitally concerned. We wrote out a series of 14 questions for Seth, and planned for a session tonight. We also began a list of her beliefs. A list of my beliefs will be added. We want to have at least a session a week on personal matters, and two or three meetings a week for work on beliefs. As expected, some of Jane’s beliefs at least partially answered some of the questions we had for Seth, but we still desire him to consider the questions.

He did of course care deeply, (and had) his interpretation of your feelings: he believed that the symptoms served you both, that you would on the one hand object, give lip service against his methods, but that underneath they provided you service.

We are working with his beliefs. He felt that you would find tours, etc., highly disruptive. There would be endless decisions to be made. The symptoms cut the need for decisions in that area.

His symptoms were meant, in a way, now, in regard to you, to make you feel better, for by contrast you became the success and he the failure. That failure was also meant to take your mind away from what he believed you believed was your own failure as an artist.

With others and strangers coming here, the symptoms put you, he believed, in a position of prominence, obviously the head of the family, having to take care of the frail woman—to compensate for the fact that he was financially making more. In this regard the illness was almost a gesture of defiance against any who would put you down.

At the same time he began to see what the symptoms turned you off to some degree, and this made him angry. Some late instances I have mentioned, having to do with his beliefs and interpretations now, of your actions in dance establishments.

You must understand I am answering a question. The symptoms as related to you are being discussed. This is a part of the picture.

He believed that you wanted sex, but that you were afraid of it, as he was, because of the possibility of pregnancy. Here the symptoms served also, and cut down the possibility of sexual activity.

For some time he did not feel that you wanted him to get better, but only to keep the symptoms within bounds. Again, this is in reference to you, and not the whole picture. On one level he felt you were quite willing to have him do this, again, as long as he did not go too far.