“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He did of course care deeply, (and had) his interpretation of your feelings: he believed that the symptoms served you both, that you would on the one hand object, give lip service against his methods, but that underneath they provided you service.

He would purposely choose occasions in which dancing, to begin with, was at least not the thing—when no one else was dancing, when an ordinary person might have inhibitions against it. The very challenge was made because it, the challenge, aroused him to action in a situation in which he felt your natural inhibitions would meet up against his denied spontaneity.

He wanted to dance precisely because no one else was. Because you would stand out, because it was not the thing to do, and he felt and believed that those were precisely the reasons why you did not want him to do so.

For some time he did not feel that you wanted him to get better, but only to keep the symptoms within bounds. Again, this is in reference to you, and not the whole picture. On one level he felt you were quite willing to have him do this, again, as long as he did not go too far.

You have, Joseph, your own invisible beliefs. In a way Ruburt was doing precisely what you would do on one level—not leaving the house, avoiding tours, simply working, cutting out all distractions, and again you approved—not of methods, but of everything else.

You envied the concentration. On the one hand you said “Good girl,” and on the other complained about the undesirable side effects. Ruburt was doing what you wanted to do, without the mountaintop. Only when the side effects became more and more obtrusive did either of you become frightened.

Now all of this tonight is in response to one question, and would apply whether or not psychic work was involved. It is only lately that each of you have really become worried enough to want a real change.

(Seth’s reference to Jane’s book idea, Aspect Psychology, touches on one of our other questions. Her editor, Tam Mossman, has offered her the prospect of a contract for a book on Adventures in Consciousness combined with Aspects. We’ve been wondering if it is a good idea for Jane to become involved with Adventures, in light of past problems. At this time we think it’s probably okay for her to work on Aspects, though.)