“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now: We will start easily enough, with your question as to whether or not Ruburt considered your feelings in all of this.

His symptoms were meant, in a way, now, in regard to you, to make you feel better, for by contrast you became the success and he the failure. That failure was also meant to take your mind away from what he believed you believed was your own failure as an artist.

At the same time he began to see what the symptoms turned you off to some degree, and this made him angry. Some late instances I have mentioned, having to do with his beliefs and interpretations now, of your actions in dance establishments.

The dancing situation is also important because bodily motion is involved. He always believed, now, that when you spoke to him in the past about walking faster than you, or not waiting for you to open doors, that you were saying to him “You are going too fast for me, and putting me in a poor social light.”

Then he felt that you were accusing him of being stupid, but without trying to come up with any solutions of your own. Then he felt completely alone, with a problem he feared he could not solve. He looked to your reaction after any spontaneous behavior, and he believed, now, that your reaction was negative.

Now. As partners, to some extent consciously you agreed to varying attitudes at different times to the conditions, though the main elements of course are Ruburt’s. You feel the necessity for some restraint in social encounters, and with the world at large. Ruburt is providing them, and also for his own reasons. He is showing the spontaneity in his work that you have denied yourself in many respects in yours. He is dealing with the world of markets that you have been unwilling to deal with. That is why you are so sensitive in that area.

Now: you have asked for my help.

Until now you both got enough out of the situation so that you did not seriously challenge it. It was meeting both of your needs.

Now all of this tonight is in response to one question, and would apply whether or not psychic work was involved. It is only lately that each of you have really become worried enough to want a real change.

Now you may end the session. We will have a good book session tomorrow. I will deal with all of your questions in private sessions.