“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Jane’s beliefs as listed already are very revealing, and much more is sure to come. Doing this work and having the session made us both feel much better. We slept well. Jane got up at 5 AM to do some work, and also went for a walk around the block before calling me for breakfast at 8.)

As mentioned today, he felt they served you, helped you save face in your family, and in society at large. You were not to be given the second place. Ruburt obviously needed you. Some of this did have to do with old ideas that you were angry at him for any success if you had not achieved your own—and more, that the success might take you on tours and further away from your own work, which would make you angrier at him.

At the same time he began to see what the symptoms turned you off to some degree, and this made him angry. Some late instances I have mentioned, having to do with his beliefs and interpretations now, of your actions in dance establishments.

He wanted to dance precisely because no one else was. Because you would stand out, because it was not the thing to do, and he felt and believed that those were precisely the reasons why you did not want him to do so.

For some time he did not feel that you wanted him to get better, but only to keep the symptoms within bounds. Again, this is in reference to you, and not the whole picture. On one level he felt you were quite willing to have him do this, again, as long as he did not go too far.

There are invaluable benefits that you each have that are invisible to you. You take them so for granted that you do not realize how extraordinary they are in comparison to other people’s experience.

You have, Joseph, your own invisible beliefs. In a way Ruburt was doing precisely what you would do on one level—not leaving the house, avoiding tours, simply working, cutting out all distractions, and again you approved—not of methods, but of everything else.

You envied the concentration. On the one hand you said “Good girl,” and on the other complained about the undesirable side effects. Ruburt was doing what you wanted to do, without the mountaintop. Only when the side effects became more and more obtrusive did either of you become frightened.

The idea of cutting down stimuli and concentrating on work was quite agreeable to both of you for some time, far beyond the time you think it was. (Pause.) You then had to do many of the chores, and go out into the world, in you must admit a small fashion, but Ruburt was afraid that otherwise you would retreat.

In line with invisible beliefs, there are many that are quite positive—ingredients in your lives that you simply do not appreciate, dimensions of activity that you take for granted.