“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

It does not easily adopt what it considers frivolous hobbies or activities that would help divert and release the energies. He constantly worries about his work, then, and all it entails.

The church was a support in the household against his mother. When the poetry was thus criticized, Ruburt was afraid the support would be withdrawn. The thoughts were considered extremely dangerous. They were not treated lightly. To some extent Ruburt equates me with a more knowledgeable Father Traynor.

What he wants to do is use his abilities to clear the pathways to clear understanding of the nature of the soul, although he would not use the term for so long.

He would not drop the psychic work. He never will. The public aspects of it alone brought up the false prophet. Now he has been doing penance in his terms: fasting, I believe it is called.

So sometimes you see in such periods he will put off sessions. The three Christs material particularly affects him that way, for to deny the conventional idea of Christ is to antagonize not merely Catholicism but basic Christian belief. The same material presented fictionally would not bother him at all. He stands behind the idea, you see. He is afraid of being attacked, or he is afraid of the work being attacked, for that kind of reason, as his poetry was.

(10:10.) The ESP book put him on record. The people that write to him as the result of his books often bothered him deeply, for he thinks that they look to him as you would to a prophet. And if he cannot help them then he does feel like a false prophet, offering hope and practically in a given situation being unable to give it.

Intellectually he changed his views. Intuitively he went ahead. The clash with the emotional aspects occurred only when a system of thought seemed formulated that would oppose the early emotional views.

He is afraid of hurting people by upturning their views. At times he was told he would come to no good if he continued with independent thinking. Intellectually he did continue. He is frightened of setting up a new religion, afraid. In one of your own sessions at least encourage him to free associate, to say freely now what comes to mind regarding his feelings about the three Christs, and also ideas of the Anti-Christ. Let these freely come. Then go to work on them.

In quite simple terms then he has felt deeply committed and frightened at the same time. The old Pandora’s box. Once he opened the door of knowledge what would come through? I suggest also that on those occasions how when any frightening feelings begin to arise to call you, to feel free to free-associate with them and let them rise.

Keeping the church, he could always return to it. Setting up a new system of thought that he considered in opposition would make this impossible. You do have more to work with than you realize once this is understood though, for there are also strong emotional drives toward the desire for truth that can be allied with the early released ones—but these must be released and understood first.