“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

As you know, Ruburt concentrates his energy and focus. He does not spread it out. This applies to people as well as deep interests.

Once he became convinced of the validity of the psychic experience, and his abilities, then all playful attitudes deserted him. He grasped at it tenaciously, and added it to the then unchallenged work to which he had, until then, devoted his main attention.

It does not easily adopt what it considers frivolous hobbies or activities that would help divert and release the energies. He constantly worries about his work, then, and all it entails.

The search for truth in the beginning was carried on within the framework of the church. In a way he was rewarded for conventional thought, and punished for unconventional thought. His poetry was accepted and praised artistically, when the ideas agreed with dogma.

The church was a support in the household against his mother. When the poetry was thus criticized, Ruburt was afraid the support would be withdrawn. The thoughts were considered extremely dangerous. They were not treated lightly. To some extent Ruburt equates me with a more knowledgeable Father Traynor.

The search for truth and the fear of leading people astray are the primary points here. In the past any intuitive thoughts he felt but could not prove were put into his fiction. This protected him from censure, both from within and without.

He takes too much responsibility upon his shoulders. He definitely does not like the religious connotation, and it is only here that problems arise.... We are giving what we can, to keep the channel open while we see what we can do.

What he wants to do is use his abilities to clear the pathways to clear understanding of the nature of the soul, although he would not use the term for so long.

The material you received from him was quite correct. At another level he feared that his relationship with me was the result of unconscious fraud, and trickery, that he had indeed become the false prophet, and conned you and everyone else, including himself.

This was because he had for one thing watched what he thought of as the two faces of Father Doran, who conned others in his preaching then showed quite opposing characteristics afterward. The quality of the material itself often kept him from admitting this feeling. The experience at the writer’s convention also had an affect there, plus the young psychologist’s remarks later—all of this accepted because of the inferiority feelings of childhood.

He would not drop the psychic work. He never will. The public aspects of it alone brought up the false prophet. Now he has been doing penance in his terms: fasting, I believe it is called.

(10:00.) The feelings prevented him from going ahead far enough to allow his psychic experience to answer some of his doubts, yet he was too convinced of the validity to drop the work.

So sometimes you see in such periods he will put off sessions. The three Christs material particularly affects him that way, for to deny the conventional idea of Christ is to antagonize not merely Catholicism but basic Christian belief. The same material presented fictionally would not bother him at all. He stands behind the idea, you see. He is afraid of being attacked, or he is afraid of the work being attacked, for that kind of reason, as his poetry was.

Many ideas are being presented in Oversoul Seven to get around that difficulty. He had been taught the dire consequences in church terms of losing your soul, and he was afraid of leading people astray whenever religious areas were approached. He believed enough however in his abilities and in his work to continue despite the deep dilemma.

(10:10.) The ESP book put him on record. The people that write to him as the result of his books often bothered him deeply, for he thinks that they look to him as you would to a prophet. And if he cannot help them then he does feel like a false prophet, offering hope and practically in a given situation being unable to give it.

When Venice’s friend committed suicide some time ago, this affected him deeply, for a session had been held and it did not stop the suicide. His symptoms at that point deepened. He greatly enjoys the psychic and intuitive experience itself, the going ahead, but he becomes worried after that point as to how the ideas will be used and interpreted.

These areas have gone largely unexplored. He needs to be convinced, and to convince himself, that his work is indeed helping others, in that it is leading toward truth and away from distortion.

The emotional beliefs therefore could not be reached. A concerted effort should be made to gain the support of the part of him who understands. Your own reasonable arguments there will help. Point them out. Bring up arguments for that side. Part of this has to do also with the fact that his complete support in St. Vincent’s Catholic orphanage was carried on by a religious order. (For over two years.)

Intellectually he changed his views. Intuitively he went ahead. The clash with the emotional aspects occurred only when a system of thought seemed formulated that would oppose the early emotional views.

The church itself has changed in that time. The feelings must be brought out into the open so that they can be handled in the light of his current intuitional and intellectual ideas. This is extremely important. You must help him counter them.

He is afraid of hurting people by upturning their views. At times he was told he would come to no good if he continued with independent thinking. Intellectually he did continue. He is frightened of setting up a new religion, afraid. In one of your own sessions at least encourage him to free associate, to say freely now what comes to mind regarding his feelings about the three Christs, and also ideas of the Anti-Christ. Let these freely come. Then go to work on them.