“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He is afraid of hurting people by upturning their views. At times he was told he would come to no good if he continued with independent thinking. Intellectually he did continue. He is frightened of setting up a new religion, afraid. [...]

[...] But Ruburt insists that he intellectually and intuitively understand each point, and agree with it, or it puts him in the position of publicizing ideas when he is not a hundred percent certain of their validity, and he considers this to some degree dishonest. If he is wrong and people follow him, where is he leading them?

So sometimes you see in such periods he will put off sessions. [...] He stands behind the idea, you see. He is afraid of being attacked, or he is afraid of the work being attacked, for that kind of reason, as his poetry was.

Once he became convinced of the validity of the psychic experience, and his abilities, then all playful attitudes deserted him. He grasped at it tenaciously, and added it to the then unchallenged work to which he had, until then, devoted his main attention.

He therefore feels highly upset if he does not accept all of my views as he understands them, and makes it a point to repeat that rebellion now in a different way.

He is more upset than he realizes over the opinion of others, experts, in the field, that dabbling in psychic phenomena is dangerous for many people. This adds fuel to the fear that he is indeed leading them astray.

He also knows that such channels lead other people away from, specifically, the Catholic church. He wondered if what he can give can make up for what they might lose. [...]

He would not drop the psychic work. He never will. [...] Now he has been doing penance in his terms: fasting, I believe it is called.

[...] He had been taught the dire consequences in church terms of losing your soul, and he was afraid of leading people astray whenever religious areas were approached. He believed enough however in his abilities and in his work to continue despite the deep dilemma.

[...] The people that write to him as the result of his books often bothered him deeply, for he thinks that they look to him as you would to a prophet. And if he cannot help them then he does feel like a false prophet, offering hope and practically in a given situation being unable to give it.