“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The search for truth and the fear of leading people astray are the primary points here. In the past any intuitive thoughts he felt but could not prove were put into his fiction. This protected him from censure, both from within and without.

He also knows that such channels lead other people away from, specifically, the Catholic church. He wondered if what he can give can make up for what they might lose. Before the material was public this bothered him, but not to that degree. It worried him when people seem to turn to the material in the same way that they might turn to a church, merely substituting one set of ideas for another, while never experiencing the concepts themselves.

Some of my material is difficult to accept intuitively and intellectually at one time. You may intuitively grasp a point and intellectually not understand it, or the other way around. But Ruburt insists that he intellectually and intuitively understand each point, and agree with it, or it puts him in the position of publicizing ideas when he is not a hundred percent certain of their validity, and he considers this to some degree dishonest. If he is wrong and people follow him, where is he leading them?

So sometimes you see in such periods he will put off sessions. The three Christs material particularly affects him that way, for to deny the conventional idea of Christ is to antagonize not merely Catholicism but basic Christian belief. The same material presented fictionally would not bother him at all. He stands behind the idea, you see. He is afraid of being attacked, or he is afraid of the work being attacked, for that kind of reason, as his poetry was.

When Venice’s friend committed suicide some time ago, this affected him deeply, for a session had been held and it did not stop the suicide. His symptoms at that point deepened. He greatly enjoys the psychic and intuitive experience itself, the going ahead, but he becomes worried after that point as to how the ideas will be used and interpreted.

Keeping the church, he could always return to it. Setting up a new system of thought that he considered in opposition would make this impossible. You do have more to work with than you realize once this is understood though, for there are also strong emotional drives toward the desire for truth that can be allied with the early released ones—but these must be released and understood first.

(11:27. I don’t think Seth fully answered the question I asked above on the previous page, but I chose not to press the point at this time.)