“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Once he became convinced of the validity of the psychic experience, and his abilities, then all playful attitudes deserted him. He grasped at it tenaciously, and added it to the then unchallenged work to which he had, until then, devoted his main attention.

It does not easily adopt what it considers frivolous hobbies or activities that would help divert and release the energies. He constantly worries about his work, then, and all it entails.

He therefore feels highly upset if he does not accept all of my views as he understands them, and makes it a point to repeat that rebellion now in a different way.

This was because he had for one thing watched what he thought of as the two faces of Father Doran, who conned others in his preaching then showed quite opposing characteristics afterward. The quality of the material itself often kept him from admitting this feeling. The experience at the writer’s convention also had an affect there, plus the young psychologist’s remarks later—all of this accepted because of the inferiority feelings of childhood.

So sometimes you see in such periods he will put off sessions. The three Christs material particularly affects him that way, for to deny the conventional idea of Christ is to antagonize not merely Catholicism but basic Christian belief. The same material presented fictionally would not bother him at all. He stands behind the idea, you see. He is afraid of being attacked, or he is afraid of the work being attacked, for that kind of reason, as his poetry was.

(“How come these early emotional ideas haven’t been influenced, at least somewhat modified by all the intuitive and intellectual activity, and new ideas, that have developed and taken place in the last few years?”)