“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(The following material is taken from notes I made at the time, and memory. It wasn’t recorded because we weren’t prepared. Jane spoke too rapidly much of the time for verbatim notes also. Consequently what is cited isn’t in order, either, although this doesn’t seem important in this case. “We were called Zaphorites then, “ Jane said. “I feel like yelling and kicking.” She kicked my foot very lightly. I was prepared if she did go into a rage, but this didn’t develop. “I was part of that cult Seth told you about last time...you know where it was. You really had no use for me or for yourself, while we were together,” she said. “You hated yourself but you couldn’t stay away from me.”

(“I’m ready to quit getting even now if you are,” Jane said in answer to a question of mine. “Now, I get the messages and you have to write them down, whereas before you had the ancient records and made the copies yourself. I wasn’t needed, in that way. But I was spontaneous, like I am now, and you needed that then just like you do now,” she said with emphasis. “You were very rigid in the way you made lines, in your work. It’s like it was all black and white then. This time though you’re adding to the lines, and I wanted to be here when you put flesh on them through your painting.”

You have always wanted, in this life, to express yourself emotionally in that fashion. You taught him how to direct his emotions in his work. Because of the tensions and the challenges, however, and for other reasons having to do with this existence, Ruburt became worried that you would not relate to him in the emotional way that his nature demanded. You asked me how you could relate to him emotionally. Do you remember, in a recent session?