“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Jane was ready for the session at 8:45, so we sat for it in our bedroom for extra privacy. Seth didn’t appear; however, although Jane said she felt him around at various times. Finally at 9:15 she said “I’ve been set up. Instead of telling us about it, Seth’s letting me feel the emotions of that young girl you were involved with when you were Nebene, at the time of Christ....” This was in or near Constantinople. The girl’s name was Sharabena, and she was Jane in that life as I was Nebene.

(See the deleted session for July 19, 1972. Now Jane looked rather uncomfortable. She said little at first, though I could tell she was recalling material from that past relationship. Actually the relationship in question, while called a reincarnational one, is a parallel one to our own. It is happening now, not two thousand years ago. Whenever I mention a “past life,” this is what I actually mean. Jane also endorses this idea.

(Jane displayed mild symptoms of anger and resentment, which grew somewhat more vehement at times. She also smiled. “Why, that’s where Sumari came from. Don’t you see? I sang and I danced.” In here she sang some Sumari songs. I thought them especially beautiful. They weren’t loud but very melodious and softly syllabled. In between the songs she spoke to me in Sumari. During these episodes I could follow the meanings quite easily; ritual was involved, as well as passion. Listening, I felt a marked regret, and wondered that this other life had seemingly assumed such a strong place in our “own” lives. I asked Jane about this later.

(“You chose your father in this life because in many ways you were like him as Nebene. And I chose my mother, who turned out crippled, for similar reasons, I guess. You also picked your father so you could watch a family situation under those terms, because you knew you weren’t going to have any children in this life. And your father wasn’t nearly as anxious to have children as you might have thought, either, this time....”

(There was more, of course, that I didn’t get down, or recall, but it would follow the same vein. It was very revealing. It served to make me think anew that when such memories are recalled consciously, then those involved are compelled to deal with them. I felt a strong depression and regret, as stated before; I could have asked more questions. I didn’t feel like defending myself very often. In answer to a question, Jane said that although reincarnational data would remain buried in many cases, it would still have to be dealt with, worked out in the present life in present terms.

—and we will begin part two of this evening’s session. To speak in terms of mastering a situation already phrases a situation in poor terms. (A remark I made during discussion, etc.) You choose situations in order to learn and understand. The two of you, now, chose that aspect of your lives together in this life, to help you understand the meaningful relationship between spontaneity as connected with the emotions and creativity, and discipline as connected with the intellectual: to feel and understand the creative tension that connects them both, to learn the personal aspects of emotional relationships as they affect others, and the reflection of the emotions into creative endeavor. You served to help Ruburt find in this life direction. He also helped spur your own sense of direction in your early days together, when you turned from commercial art.

The commercial art served your emotions quite simply. It allowed you to release your emotions in stereotyped impersonal ways. Some situations, drawn, might be of highly charged areas—the Spillane strips, for example—yet the release of the emotion was stereotyped. You knew that one of Ruburt’s purposes would be to insist upon the expression of your emotions to him personally. Because of other life aspects you knew this.

You have always wanted, in this life, to express yourself emotionally in that fashion. You taught him how to direct his emotions in his work. Because of the tensions and the challenges, however, and for other reasons having to do with this existence, Ruburt became worried that you would not relate to him in the emotional way that his nature demanded. You asked me how you could relate to him emotionally. Do you remember, in a recent session?