“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He saw in his time how so-called mysticism and even dedication, without discipline, could divert energy, distort truths and pervert causes. He was well aware that high energy could be lost through dissipation. He dammed his own up, letting it out only in the deep but narrow channel of his interest. He had little use for spontaneity. He was afraid of it.

The dilemma was, here now, between truth—a literal translation of ancient records—or a creative approach which could lead to falsification, so he was highly suspicious of the creativity in himself. Through discipline he thought that he had this suspicious creativity well in hand. He feared that his students would not have the same kind of integrity. He was therefore very severe in dealing with originality on the part of his students, considering it, again, a threat. He was indeed a taskmaster.

Here Nebene within you rushed to your aid. He was appalled that your ability, while disciplined, lacked the intent and purpose, the search for truth and meaning, he felt being adulterated. Ruburt, with high youthful ideals, a strong sense of purpose, then came into the picture. He was accepted by you and by Nebene. Nebene felt the purpose would save your abilities.

His fear of the truth of the material, you see, fit in very well with Nebene’s tendencies, and so in certain ways they also joined in alliance. Take your break.

Now Ruburt’s own background this time, with ideas of truth and falsehood, tied in beautifully with Nebene. Nebene was as determined to get the correct reincarnational details because they were in his terms true, as Ruburt was determined to avoid them because in his terms they were not true.

Tell Ruburt I said to think of these himself as simultaneous existences, and forget the word reincarnation if he wants. For that matter simultaneous existences is much closer to the truth of the matter. These personalities are alive in your now, as you are alive in them now. They are portions of your consciousness, your gestalt of being. They are individualized personalities. All of you draw your characteristics from the one entity that is the bank of your personality.