“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

First, we will begin with Nebene. He was a man of the strongest purpose, high dedication, a severe perfectionist who drove himself and his students. He was a mystic, but a mystic given to great discipline, denial, restraint. He inhibited many of his strongest drives in order to focus them upon his search and the work to which he was committed.

He saw in his time how so-called mysticism and even dedication, without discipline, could divert energy, distort truths and pervert causes. He was well aware that high energy could be lost through dissipation. He dammed his own up, letting it out only in the deep but narrow channel of his interest. He had little use for spontaneity. He was afraid of it.

His methods worked very well in the transcription of his records, and purified his translations. He was afraid that spontaneity would cause him to color certain transcriptions from the past. His methods did not work nearly as well in person-to-person contact with his students, however.

In dealing with these records he was suspicious of creativity, for he feared it could lead to original alterations where instead a literal interpretation was important. He was also however a creative man so there were personality conflicts, and he literally forced the creativity to take a weak secondary position.

The dilemma was, here now, between truth—a literal translation of ancient records—or a creative approach which could lead to falsification, so he was highly suspicious of the creativity in himself. Through discipline he thought that he had this suspicious creativity well in hand. He feared that his students would not have the same kind of integrity. He was therefore very severe in dealing with originality on the part of his students, considering it, again, a threat. He was indeed a taskmaster.

In this life Ruburt feared a laxness within himself because of his mother’s remarks about his father. He knew his own abilities. He feared he did not have the wisdom to use them wisely. They must be appreciated but not spent foolishly. You appreciated them. The Nebene in you could be counted upon to see that they were not squandered.

Here Nebene within you rushed to your aid. He was appalled that your ability, while disciplined, lacked the intent and purpose, the search for truth and meaning, he felt being adulterated. Ruburt, with high youthful ideals, a strong sense of purpose, then came into the picture. He was accepted by you and by Nebene. Nebene felt the purpose would save your abilities.

He had already spoken within you, rousing you to dissatisfaction. Ruburt, who had led him astray in the past, would now lead you into high purpose and dedication. The two of you, Ruburt and Joseph, had already made agreements, as you know. Nebene however carried a grudge as Ruburt does, or rather now as Jane does. Ruburt does not carry grudges.

Nebene, while thankful to Jane, quickly let other aspects enter in once you had safely decided upon painting rather than comics, which were to him degrading. He was then afraid that Ruburt’s spontaneity would divert you from the course that it had set you upon, so he began to take a stronger hand.

Part of the stronger hand also had to do with his attempts to help you with your family, to shut you off from too much distracting emotion, when for example you moved back to Sayre after New York. Ruburt however reacted most vehemently against this shutdown of emotional reaction. He felt then the force that was Nebene. Now at times his own overly-conscientious portions would agree quite heartily with Nebene’s dictates. Because of his psychic abilities he picked up these qualities quite accurately. They would often seem so different from your own actions at a given time that he became highly confused, and distrusted his own reactions.

At a completely different level of course Nebene and Sharabena—do not ask for spelling now—understood each other quite well, and she would taunt him. Now regardless of what interpretations Ruburt wants to put upon what I am saying, whether or not he wants to accept the reincarnation influence, the fact is that what I am saying has a psychological reality that neither of you can deny, and one that acts constantly in your lives.

With you, Nebene checked the details of the book. This put Ruburt under additional pressure, and he began to rebel more. You made some remark that the book was marred because of the great gaps in sessions, Ruburt’s attitude, and so forth. Ruburt therefore felt that you were accusing him again of a poor performance, and for other reasons also felt that in your eyes these faults took precedence over the book’s obvious merit. Because of the strain, and because he felt his spontaneity so hampered, he came up with (Oversoul)Seven, defiantly, where Nebene could not follow; pure creativity, he felt, with no factual details that he could be called upon.

A slap in the face to Nebene, saying “Aha, I am using my abilities as frivolously as I dare to, and you will get little more from me.” At the same time he also felt guilty and the book, Seven, is filled with purpose regardless.

Seven himself is characterized by a dislike for details, and a grand disregard of formality. He is the epitome of Ruburt’s spontaneous self, frivolous in a way of speaking but very definitely, quite of itself, filled with purpose but free-wheeling.

—but when Ruburt merrily began to write you spoke to him quite sharply, reminding him that he was dropping other projects to embark on a new one at Tam’s enthusiasm. You implied his abjectness.

Nebene is quite jealous of Tam’s influence, such as it is, but again, Nebene let it be known he disapproved. Now this had charge behind it later when you assured Ruburt you were delighted with the project. You had no such charge. The charge registered. A quick aside: your friend Sue’s behavior: she was kicking her heels up at Nebene also.

Now your (underlined) main failure in dealing with Ruburt is an emotional one. You cannot reason with the part of him who felt hurt deeply, or to the part that felt he was rejected. In your attempts to explain yourself in the main, now, you have tried to use logic and reason, when it was as I told you before a feeling of being deprived emotionally. He did not feel deprived intellectually.

He felt insulted on those levels. You have quite carefully avoided them in your attempts to clear up the problems. The muscles themselves cry out to be soothed, and the physical touch, the relaxation of muscle, brings about an emotional release. An emotional release brings about a muscular one.

He felt much time wasted, but held off, seeing if an absence from sessions would help his health. He had also resented the coercion that Nebene implied. Nebene was upset because of this own sense of purpose. Ruburt knew this but would no longer give sessions because he felt forced to.

Nebene has learned a thing or two. He was certain that given the chance Ruburt would throw the sessions over gladly. He did not trust Ruburt’s overall consistency, you see. Part of the symptoms these last months have arisen and continued because of these ambiguities.

Therefore there was little consistent attempt made to reassure Ruburt’s emotional nature, or reach it on an emotional or physical level. Instead you used reason. Secondly, the conflict over sessions: Ruburt himself felt he was wasting time on the one hand, and on the other was refusing to be coerced.

He also felt that you had already disapproved of Seth Speaks, not understanding the Nebene connection. Take your break. Incidentally, it is also Nebene who cannot understand why Ruburt’s emotional nature cannot be reached intellectually.

The lives are simultaneous. In quite other terms Nebene wonders why he is bothered or hampered in his life situation, so devoted to detail and literal interpretation, by his strong leanings—temptations to him—toward creativity and spontaneity.

Tell Ruburt I said to think of these himself as simultaneous existences, and forget the word reincarnation if he wants. For that matter simultaneous existences is much closer to the truth of the matter. These personalities are alive in your now, as you are alive in them now. They are portions of your consciousness, your gestalt of being. They are individualized personalities. All of you draw your characteristics from the one entity that is the bank of your personality.

Ruburt’s feeling of hopelessness added lately to his symptoms. Now. He personally utilizes programs and incentives. He needs his sense of purpose. In this particular situation, in the present, beginning sessions again is helpful in this context. The negative fears that he cannot perform however hypnotize the muscles. The positive suggestions are of great value with these necessary deeper changes of behavior. Do you follow me?