“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He saw in his time how so-called mysticism and even dedication, without discipline, could divert energy, distort truths and pervert causes. He was well aware that high energy could be lost through dissipation. He dammed his own up, letting it out only in the deep but narrow channel of his interest. He had little use for spontaneity. He was afraid of it.

In this life you equated your own creativity with danger, now, to some degree. In the first place your father’s creativity, his inventions, brought him no recognition, no money in your mother’s terms. The creativity in your mother simply erupted in emotional tantrums, also dangerous and unproductive. You nicely channeled your creativity into comics, where it was socially acceptable and would also bring recognition in the terms of your society—cash.

Now, let me add several important points, covered earlier. First of all I have given you many sessions looking at the problem from different aspects. The suggestions given, all of them, followed consistently—and none of them were—would have led you through channels of understanding culminating in Ruburt’s recovery. Added therefore to reasons given this evening are such issues given earlier, as a concentration upon negatives, and the methods given earlier to counter those will also be of help.