“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now when you met Ruburt, and I will give you connecting points here, you recognized the strong creative abilities, and appreciated them, encouraged them. But within you also through association the remnants of Nebene roused themselves into action. The abilities were to be used. You knew that.

The Nebene within you however was quite certain that they must also be disciplined, kept within bounds and watched carefully. The same applied to your own creative abilities, where for some time a divergence from a literal pictorial illustration was felt to be wrong, or off. Some other personal information that I gave you concerning your relationship with your father this time also fits in here.

Now Nebene was aroused whenever the abilities showed themselves most spontaneously in Ruburt. Ruburt recognized the Nebene within you when first you met. Jane was dancing quite spontaneously, incidentally, and to boot somewhat tipsy. She felt you aloof and disapproving of the waste of energy, watching but not swept along as the other males were. A part of you enjoying the performance but a part, Nebene, critically wondering about the undisciplined use of such energy.

In this life Ruburt feared a laxness within himself because of his mother’s remarks about his father. He knew his own abilities. He feared he did not have the wisdom to use them wisely. They must be appreciated but not spent foolishly. You appreciated them. The Nebene in you could be counted upon to see that they were not squandered.

Here Nebene within you rushed to your aid. He was appalled that your ability, while disciplined, lacked the intent and purpose, the search for truth and meaning, he felt being adulterated. Ruburt, with high youthful ideals, a strong sense of purpose, then came into the picture. He was accepted by you and by Nebene. Nebene felt the purpose would save your abilities.

Part of the stronger hand also had to do with his attempts to help you with your family, to shut you off from too much distracting emotion, when for example you moved back to Sayre after New York. Ruburt however reacted most vehemently against this shutdown of emotional reaction. He felt then the force that was Nebene. Now at times his own overly-conscientious portions would agree quite heartily with Nebene’s dictates. Because of his psychic abilities he picked up these qualities quite accurately. They would often seem so different from your own actions at a given time that he became highly confused, and distrusted his own reactions.

The Nebene characteristics came particularly to the fore in the transcription of my book of course, and with the encounter with your friend Sue. Nebene was furious that Ruburt would not speak for him. Nebene wanted to speak through Ruburt, knowing his abilities, and Ruburt refused.

A slap in the face to Nebene, saying “Aha, I am using my abilities as frivolously as I dare to, and you will get little more from me.” At the same time he also felt guilty and the book, Seven, is filled with purpose regardless.

In whatever situation you find yourself, in whatever “life,” (in quotes) there will be different focuses of abilities, conflicts of ability that are all challenges. You, as you are, have helped Nebene understand the importance of creativity, and so has Ruburt. And while there have been severe conflicts, understandings on all levels have occurred, and development.

Understanding then, you can use the abilities as you want. Before, they seemed to have an energy of their own, almost at times not a part of you, and Nebene experienced his own creativity as equally apart from him at times.

You quite gladly used those disciplinary abilities, and they served you well in early years as a framework in which you handle your parents’ situation. It is up to you to become aware of them, realize their value, but not allow them to block other aspects of your personality.

Now I will tell you that Ruburt’s Josef, in Seven, is a very good approximation of another quite different life of yours, in which the emotions were given the fullest of sway—and you also have those characteristics to draw upon. They were warm, exuberant. Using them, and you do have them, you would have no difficulty in relating emotionally in the way I suggested. In helping Ruburt in this manner, you see, you automatically release portions of your own personality and abilities that have been repressed, and that is a portion of the whole situation.