“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He saw in his time how so-called mysticism and even dedication, without discipline, could divert energy, distort truths and pervert causes. He was well aware that high energy could be lost through dissipation. He dammed his own up, letting it out only in the deep but narrow channel of his interest. He had little use for spontaneity. He was afraid of it.

This is in your life as Nebene. Let us get to the details in our time. You died, I believe, shortly after the time of Christ—that is, somewhere between 35 and 50 AD.

Nebene, while thankful to Jane, quickly let other aspects enter in once you had safely decided upon painting rather than comics, which were to him degrading. He was then afraid that Ruburt’s spontaneity would divert you from the course that it had set you upon, so he began to take a stronger hand.

Nebene is quite jealous of Tam’s influence, such as it is, but again, Nebene let it be known he disapproved. Now this had charge behind it later when you assured Ruburt you were delighted with the project. You had no such charge. The charge registered. A quick aside: your friend Sue’s behavior: she was kicking her heels up at Nebene also.

Now, let me add several important points, covered earlier. First of all I have given you many sessions looking at the problem from different aspects. The suggestions given, all of them, followed consistently—and none of them were—would have led you through channels of understanding culminating in Ruburt’s recovery. Added therefore to reasons given this evening are such issues given earlier, as a concentration upon negatives, and the methods given earlier to counter those will also be of help.