“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

He was afraid of going too far too fast, and worse, of going alone. Controls were applied as he learned to experience and use his growing abilities. The fears about being an official psychic were to see that he did not fall into the temptation of allowing all the dogmas to be tacked upon the phenomena, so that he would not operate within old frameworks, and therefore tacitly give voice consent to them.

In all of this you also acquiesced. It was known that only by presenting the material in writing, and eventually in books, that his personality would accept it. He would also be driven to critically analyze the phenomena (hyphen)—and in books, because he is a writer—before he felt free enough to simply create (period).

The reasons given still apply, but all within this greater framework. The body’s needs to some extent even have changed. Now much of this would have frightened you both in the past, and could not have been given until you reached a particular point of development, and achieved a new status both separately and in your relationship.

(It also seemed that both of us had made the decision to confine the psychic work to sessions only, which I thought would at this time automatically shut down a lot of possible developments. I also felt there was a strong possibility the sessions themselves would go by the board unless Jane showed much improvement before too much more time passed. We believe we are committed to delivering Seth’s new book, but after that....

(I thought at least that Jane could use the psychic awareness as intuition, etc., in her work, as everyone else did, do her “straight writing,” and let it go at that. At this time, in view of our own experiences, I seriously doubted that very many individuals in our reality were truly ready or equipped to handle such developments without a great struggle—chosen or no. There was, I felt, a great chance the struggle would get the best of them.

Ruburt’s cautionary attitude was his way of maintaining balance. Usually his particular kind of development takes place in two lives, in your terms. Your own unswerving desire to paint is your impetus, as writing was Ruburt’s and is, so that your knowledge would be interpreted in those terms—as, if you continue, it will be.

(“The whole thing’s unexpected by me,” she said. I wondered why it should be, and also thought that this was a way the sessions would try to protect themselves. But then, there was Seth’s book to be finished.... 11:20.)

Ruburt had to understand his own creative necessities as a person, and accept the mobility of his own consciousness and those changes that it would involve. You also have to be free enough, and will be, to stand on your own position, and you must be free enough to cast aside the shackles that invisibly surround the field of painting, and even your own interpretation of it.