“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

True creativity is far more apt to flourish, however, to the extent that you are not trapped by the “mass mind”(in quotes), and not tempted by the inducements. (Long pause at 9:10.) You chose the circumstances against which to pit yourself. The kind of art you will produce is not meant to be the art of youth. It is not what you intended. Your insights and intuitions were to be sifted through earthly years of knowledge and experience. Through these, childlike wisdom will indeed show itself, but a wisdom that has been tried, that is aware of its own integrity through the seasons.

You did not chose that easy way for a reason. You knew you were preparing yourself, but the time of preparation was extended beyond what it need have been. (9:20.)

The psychic developments are also interbound in your own work, because you doubted yourself the preparation time was extended by you. The final period was and is to be one in which your energies are directed to your work without the outside job, for finally you began to feel that you were not doing what you should do; this itself inhibited your trust in yourself further, and therefore the development of your work.

Now. The inhibition you were enforcing upon yourself by working outside was reflected in your work inevitably, as soon as you became aware that the course no longer served its purpose. You were not one with yourself or with your course of action. You were somewhat apart from yourself then.