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(I asked if Seth would discuss Tam’s dream of January 1, 1973; her cold symptoms dating from last October; and the letter Seth has promised to dictate for correspondents. We played badminton today also. Both of us had many interruptions, and resolved to do something about this. We planned to get up much earlier tomorrow, for one thing.)

For some time I have given you much advice, many suggestions, knowing full well that some would go by the board. Enough of them would be followed however to provide some kind of inner program, that would at least head you in the proper directions.

The trouble is that when you refuse to deal with such quite available conscious problems, you begin to organize other pertinent material about the problem, and it also becomes taboo. It is a game you play with yourself. Because you will not face the material, you cannot counter it with other conscious ideas, or generate other emotional feelings that would help you.

They were not worked through, however, and he stopped the practice. Unknowingly you were working on the two levels given in my last session, through suggestion, building self-confidence while Ruburt wrote out his gripes and conscious thoughts. Until he produced Seven, however, he would not really consider facing the dilemma. Seven was the novel that showed him he could (underlined) write fiction.

(Tam wrote Jane on January 2, 1973, asking for some material on his dream of the night before. In distorted form he picked up that Jane and I had decided on January 2 that Adventures in Consciousness would not be written or contracted; that in daytime working hours Jane was to go full steam ahead on her own writing, etc. Jane called him on the morning of the second of January. [Copy sent to Tam on January 12, 1973, of this portion.])

Now. I could not force Ruburt to face the dilemma until he felt he was ready to handle it—then he would see it as he does, now, as a challenge. All the other reasons given fit in. They were behind the reasons that he did not feel he could face the dilemma, but they partially masked it, also.

Now you have also been afraid that you could not do your own thing on your (underlined) own, so you acquiesced to the situation. You understood, though you would not face your understanding. Ruburt’s dilemma was quite clear to you. You felt you could not push him until he was ready.

The Gallery (magazine) article will now be a great success. And so will Monroe’s visit, as it would not have been earlier. I bid you a fond good evening.

You felt it would be such (underlined) a temptation that you might give in. All the time you realized that your proper way necessitated deeper understandings, and held out.