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They were not worked through, however, and he stopped the practice. Unknowingly you were working on the two levels given in my last session, through suggestion, building self-confidence while Ruburt wrote out his gripes and conscious thoughts. Until he produced Seven, however, he would not really consider facing the dilemma. Seven was the novel that showed him he could (underlined) write fiction.

They must therefore be duly faced each day until they normally diminish into normal daily concern. Do not forget, in whatever way you choose to use it, the importance of reinforcing his sense of worth, despite what he does. The charge built up, for him (underlined) about time and work, is masking of course his fear of not achieving as he wants to. This is aside from normal practical considerations of time.

I suggest now, for now (underlined), that you each do arise at 6:30, and take a good nap before dinner. I suggest this because it will help you both with your work. It is a simple method. It will also however give you freer psychic time in your nap.

In two days Ruburt has become more aware of his problems consciously, and made connections that had (underlined) to be made. Future psychic work was also dependent upon a (in quotes) “correct” decision on his part.

Tam has great trust in me, in Ruburt’s work, and basically in himself. He has always gone along with Ruburt. Their connections are good in waking life, but their relationship goes far deeper. Some of their waking reactions are incongruous. They are sometimes delighted with each other, and yet sometimes feel, in meeting, a conscious sense of disappointment while experiencing an inner sense of recognition and joyful enthusiasm.

(Tam wrote Jane on January 2, 1973, asking for some material on his dream of the night before. In distorted form he picked up that Jane and I had decided on January 2 that Adventures in Consciousness would not be written or contracted; that in daytime working hours Jane was to go full steam ahead on her own writing, etc. Jane called him on the morning of the second of January. [Copy sent to Tam on January 12, 1973, of this portion.])

Tell him I am smiling, but I am telling him to trust himself and not look to others for readings. They will only confuse him. He will be connected with Seven and a movie. Some of his later writing will deal with me, with Ruburt’s class, but in ways he does not suspect. I have great affection for him. His dream work will (underlined) show fruits, and he and Ruburt are involved in dreams together, though they do not recognize themselves in those dreams.

Now you two are in the clear, with the basic dilemma out, being acted upon, worked through and faced; but the habits must also be combated by Ruburt writing out those thoughts and feelings daily. The badminton important as given, as trivial as that may seem.

He had to realize his fear and his terrible dilemma in regard to Eleanor because it showed in concentrated form his own fear about his being able to succeed on his own, hence his dependence, that made him resent Eleanor. He had to work through that resentment.

(“You mean by my pendulum?” When I learned not long ago that Jane’s symptoms were caused by her fear that her psychic work was not letting her do her own writing—that she was failing as a writer, that she wanted success as a writer first, not as a psychic, etc.)

Rich Bed will sell. There will be another, and another Seven. Ruburt was upset with the psychic reputation, not because it was psychic but because it was not the one he wanted. He is delighted with it as long as he is working toward what he wants. Then he can relax and enjoy it.

You were highly impatient, then. At the same time you knew that once you did commercial work for money as a young man, quite happily. It fulfilled definite needs. At any level of your artistic development thus far, you could have cashed in with some application, and been, you felt, betrayed by money and acclaim as a certain level of development.