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In reference to my book’s theme now, the basic dilemma as well as its reasons and development, was quite available in Ruburt’s conscious mind all of that time. He chose not to deal with it however because he was not ready to face the problem, he did not feel himself capable. He was not ready to make the move.

The unacceptable conscious problem therefore collects great charges of correlated emotional feelings that also go unexpressed. The summer that Ruburt was better, he began writing down his feelings and thoughts. That helped release some of them, did therefore release him consciously, and lead directly to his later writing.

They were not worked through, however, and he stopped the practice. Unknowingly you were working on the two levels given in my last session, through suggestion, building self-confidence while Ruburt wrote out his gripes and conscious thoughts. Until he produced Seven, however, he would not really consider facing the dilemma. Seven was the novel that showed him he could (underlined) write fiction.

Adventures served as the vehicle that brought to light many of his feelings against the psychic field, or rather his part as he saw it in it. It was necessary and served a purpose. One purpose was his realization that such a book, for now, even at his best, with personal orientation, was not his cup of tea. Much of the material in it later will be published.

The cold and the jaw difficulty—both of these were his physical interpretation of a growing crisis that had to be faced. He was ready to face the problem, to bring it out into the open, and the whole issue was finally brought out into the open through those symptoms. The critical period is over because of his recognition of the problem and his determination to face and solve it.

(9:30.) Certain ideas he has now are in a stage of transition still, a necessary stage. The tooth was meant to get his attention, to make him realize the importance of acting now. There will be no more great trouble with it. In a few days it will have completely disappeared. It is of great importance now however that he write down his thoughts as begun each day. It is not that he need concentrate on negative ideas. These are normal feelings and thoughts that gained such charge only because they were collected about the unfaced dilemma; whether or not he could make it on his own, or could afford the opportunity to try.

In two days Ruburt has become more aware of his problems consciously, and made connections that had (underlined) to be made. Future psychic work was also dependent upon a (in quotes) “correct” decision on his part.

As far as Tam’s dream was concerned, I have a few things to say.

(Tam wrote Jane on January 2, 1973, asking for some material on his dream of the night before. In distorted form he picked up that Jane and I had decided on January 2 that Adventures in Consciousness would not be written or contracted; that in daytime working hours Jane was to go full steam ahead on her own writing, etc. Jane called him on the morning of the second of January. [Copy sent to Tam on January 12, 1973, of this portion.])

The dream was not simply Tam’s dramatization of a message sent by Ruburt, yet dramatization was involved. Ruburt acted out his ideas of a conventional medium for Tam, who in a dream state perceived Ruburt’s dramatization.

Both of them knew on other levels that Ruburt needed a backlog of chapters, and the book well in progress, so Tam simply went along, as Ruburt did, until the time came when Ruburt realized he had full confidence, the book was good, and that Adventures had other purposes.

(10:00. Jane’s trance had been deep, her delivery rapid and intent. Seth was insistently present. “All right, all right,” Jane said to the invisible Seth. I told her I was ready if she wanted to resume. 10:02.)

Now. I could not force Ruburt to face the dilemma until he felt he was ready to handle it—then he would see it as he does, now, as a challenge. All the other reasons given fit in. They were behind the reasons that he did not feel he could face the dilemma, but they partially masked it, also.

The fear then colored his other attitudes and reactions. His fear of the tooth pain was a physical interpretation of his fear of facing the dilemma, the pain of bringing it out into the open. Then he found it was not as bad as he thought—he could operate anyway, and amazingly well, as in class (ESP) last evening.

The class was important. (As Jane said also.) Because he now decided to do his own thing also, he was free to do his psychic thing also—hence today the out-of-body experiments conducted. (Quite successfully.) Once he saw himself simply (underlined) as a psychic, he became prey to all of the conventional psychic ideas, afraid of the sexual-demon characteristics connected with out-of-bodies, for example.

Seeing himself doing his own thing short-circuits such unnecessary reactions. The experiments conducted unconsciously also spread energy through the physical body where it was needed, and was therapeutic.

Now you have also been afraid that you could not do your own thing on your (underlined) own, so you acquiesced to the situation. You understood, though you would not face your understanding. Ruburt’s dilemma was quite clear to you. You felt you could not push him until he was ready.

(Almost with a laugh:) He resented that you did not push him in that particular matter. You understood however Adventure’s meaning and significance, and helped him when you realized he was ready to accept it, by your suggestion. Do you follow me?

(“You mean by my pendulum?” When I learned not long ago that Jane’s symptoms were caused by her fear that her psychic work was not letting her do her own writing—that she was failing as a writer, that she wanted success as a writer first, not as a psychic, etc.)

I do indeed. The apartment situation was another symbol for moving—the physical one of impasse. It had to be faced on that level physically in your cases, before the other problem of mobility could come completely to light.

The physical changes however are supremely important, as physical materializations of inner ones. There are stresses now in terms of contracts and money, that Ruburt was not willing to face before. They are apparent now, and not masked. That is why the writing, as given, is important—that they be daily vented.

Rich Bed will sell. There will be another, and another Seven. Ruburt was upset with the psychic reputation, not because it was psychic but because it was not the one he wanted. He is delighted with it as long as he is working toward what he wants. Then he can relax and enjoy it.

He felt it as a threat, rightly, while he was afraid to use his writing abilities in other forms, as he must. Only then will the true unity be apparent to him.

(Jane was yawning, again and again. She got more data as she yawned:)

Ruburt was quite conscious all the time about the reasons behind the symptoms. He just wasn’t ready to face it. This makes my book extremely valid.

Now. You did not feel free to do your own thing until Ruburt felt free to do his, because you felt he was helping out so financially. This is at one level.

(10:35. Again Jane’s trance had been deep. She was very relaxed. “All I want to know is,” she said, “how am I going to get from here [the living room] into there?” Meaning across the hall to the bedroom.

(It is Monday, January 15 as I finish typing this session. On the day it was held, January 10, Seth said there wouldn’t be any more great trouble for Jane through the tooth symptoms. This hasn’t proven out. The tooth symptoms have hung on, perhaps not as severely; they frighten Jane a good deal. Through the pendulum, suggestion, her writing, etc., we have learned a lot about their causes. Eliminating the symptoms though is like trying to pick up mercury at this writing. The latest wrinkle is that the teeth reflect her concern about money, eating, and my own success as an artist...)