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In reference to my book’s theme now, the basic dilemma as well as its reasons and development, was quite available in Ruburt’s conscious mind all of that time. He chose not to deal with it however because he was not ready to face the problem, he did not feel himself capable. He was not ready to make the move.

The unacceptable conscious problem therefore collects great charges of correlated emotional feelings that also go unexpressed. The summer that Ruburt was better, he began writing down his feelings and thoughts. That helped release some of them, did therefore release him consciously, and lead directly to his later writing.

They were not worked through, however, and he stopped the practice. Unknowingly you were working on the two levels given in my last session, through suggestion, building self-confidence while Ruburt wrote out his gripes and conscious thoughts. Until he produced Seven, however, he would not really consider facing the dilemma. Seven was the novel that showed him he could (underlined) write fiction.

In two days Ruburt has become more aware of his problems consciously, and made connections that had (underlined) to be made. Future psychic work was also dependent upon a (in quotes) “correct” decision on his part.

Tam has great trust in me, in Ruburt’s work, and basically in himself. He has always gone along with Ruburt. Their connections are good in waking life, but their relationship goes far deeper. Some of their waking reactions are incongruous. They are sometimes delighted with each other, and yet sometimes feel, in meeting, a conscious sense of disappointment while experiencing an inner sense of recognition and joyful enthusiasm.

There is a connection between Aerofranz and Ruburt, as well as a connection between Tam and Nebene. Tam knew the purposes of Adventures from the beginning—as did Ruburt, but neither of them could act on that knowledge consciously, for it did not serve as yet their conscious purposes.

The dream was not simply Tam’s dramatization of a message sent by Ruburt, yet dramatization was involved. Ruburt acted out his ideas of a conventional medium for Tam, who in a dream state perceived Ruburt’s dramatization.

Tam received the basic message, though in the morning. He made several distortions, substituting you (RFB) and the book I suggested (Through My Eyes) rather than Ruburt and Adventures. He did this to give himself time on a conscious level to deal with the situation. Some time ago, after Seven, he mentioned my book, my new book, to Ruburt, and Ruburt said he did not want to contract trance material ahead of time, so Tam let it rest.

Both of them knew on other levels that Ruburt needed a backlog of chapters, and the book well in progress, so Tam simply went along, as Ruburt did, until the time came when Ruburt realized he had full confidence, the book was good, and that Adventures had other purposes.

Tell him I am smiling, but I am telling him to trust himself and not look to others for readings. They will only confuse him. He will be connected with Seven and a movie. Some of his later writing will deal with me, with Ruburt’s class, but in ways he does not suspect. I have great affection for him. His dream work will (underlined) show fruits, and he and Ruburt are involved in dreams together, though they do not recognize themselves in those dreams.

Now you two are in the clear, with the basic dilemma out, being acted upon, worked through and faced; but the habits must also be combated by Ruburt writing out those thoughts and feelings daily. The badminton important as given, as trivial as that may seem.

Now. I could not force Ruburt to face the dilemma until he felt he was ready to handle it—then he would see it as he does, now, as a challenge. All the other reasons given fit in. They were behind the reasons that he did not feel he could face the dilemma, but they partially masked it, also.

Now you have also been afraid that you could not do your own thing on your (underlined) own, so you acquiesced to the situation. You understood, though you would not face your understanding. Ruburt’s dilemma was quite clear to you. You felt you could not push him until he was ready.

The physical changes however are supremely important, as physical materializations of inner ones. There are stresses now in terms of contracts and money, that Ruburt was not willing to face before. They are apparent now, and not masked. That is why the writing, as given, is important—that they be daily vented.

Rich Bed will sell. There will be another, and another Seven. Ruburt was upset with the psychic reputation, not because it was psychic but because it was not the one he wanted. He is delighted with it as long as he is working toward what he wants. Then he can relax and enjoy it.

It is important that you feel free to move in all areas, and see the connection between all kinds of mobility, and face Ruburt’s practical considerations about turning down one contract while thinking about purchasing a house—and that is it for this evening.

Ruburt was quite conscious all the time about the reasons behind the symptoms. He just wasn’t ready to face it. This makes my book extremely valid.

Now. You did not feel free to do your own thing until Ruburt felt free to do his, because you felt he was helping out so financially. This is at one level.

The money motive did help Ruburt in other areas, and led him to greater understanding while he always knew it had to be dispensed with. Do you follow me?

Let my freedom be your own. It is yours and Ruburt’s..