“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

In reference to my book’s theme now, the basic dilemma as well as its reasons and development, was quite available in Ruburt’s conscious mind all of that time. He chose not to deal with it however because he was not ready to face the problem, he did not feel himself capable. He was not ready to make the move.

The trouble is that when you refuse to deal with such quite available conscious problems, you begin to organize other pertinent material about the problem, and it also becomes taboo. It is a game you play with yourself. Because you will not face the material, you cannot counter it with other conscious ideas, or generate other emotional feelings that would help you.

The unacceptable conscious problem therefore collects great charges of correlated emotional feelings that also go unexpressed. The summer that Ruburt was better, he began writing down his feelings and thoughts. That helped release some of them, did therefore release him consciously, and lead directly to his later writing.

The cold and the jaw difficulty—both of these were his physical interpretation of a growing crisis that had to be faced. He was ready to face the problem, to bring it out into the open, and the whole issue was finally brought out into the open through those symptoms. The critical period is over because of his recognition of the problem and his determination to face and solve it.

In two days Ruburt has become more aware of his problems consciously, and made connections that had (underlined) to be made. Future psychic work was also dependent upon a (in quotes) “correct” decision on his part.

I do indeed. The apartment situation was another symbol for moving—the physical one of impasse. It had to be faced on that level physically in your cases, before the other problem of mobility could come completely to light.