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The unacceptable conscious problem therefore collects great charges of correlated emotional feelings that also go unexpressed. The summer that Ruburt was better, he began writing down his feelings and thoughts. That helped release some of them, did therefore release him consciously, and lead directly to his later writing.

They were not worked through, however, and he stopped the practice. Unknowingly you were working on the two levels given in my last session, through suggestion, building self-confidence while Ruburt wrote out his gripes and conscious thoughts. Until he produced Seven, however, he would not really consider facing the dilemma. Seven was the novel that showed him he could (underlined) write fiction.

(9:30.) Certain ideas he has now are in a stage of transition still, a necessary stage. The tooth was meant to get his attention, to make him realize the importance of acting now. There will be no more great trouble with it. In a few days it will have completely disappeared. It is of great importance now however that he write down his thoughts as begun each day. It is not that he need concentrate on negative ideas. These are normal feelings and thoughts that gained such charge only because they were collected about the unfaced dilemma; whether or not he could make it on his own, or could afford the opportunity to try.

They must therefore be duly faced each day until they normally diminish into normal daily concern. Do not forget, in whatever way you choose to use it, the importance of reinforcing his sense of worth, despite what he does. The charge built up, for him (underlined) about time and work, is masking of course his fear of not achieving as he wants to. This is aside from normal practical considerations of time.

(Tam wrote Jane on January 2, 1973, asking for some material on his dream of the night before. In distorted form he picked up that Jane and I had decided on January 2 that Adventures in Consciousness would not be written or contracted; that in daytime working hours Jane was to go full steam ahead on her own writing, etc. Jane called him on the morning of the second of January. [Copy sent to Tam on January 12, 1973, of this portion.])

Tell him I am smiling, but I am telling him to trust himself and not look to others for readings. They will only confuse him. He will be connected with Seven and a movie. Some of his later writing will deal with me, with Ruburt’s class, but in ways he does not suspect. I have great affection for him. His dream work will (underlined) show fruits, and he and Ruburt are involved in dreams together, though they do not recognize themselves in those dreams.

He had to realize his fear and his terrible dilemma in regard to Eleanor because it showed in concentrated form his own fear about his being able to succeed on his own, hence his dependence, that made him resent Eleanor. He had to work through that resentment.

Now you have also been afraid that you could not do your own thing on your (underlined) own, so you acquiesced to the situation. You understood, though you would not face your understanding. Ruburt’s dilemma was quite clear to you. You felt you could not push him until he was ready.

(Almost with a laugh:) He resented that you did not push him in that particular matter. You understood however Adventure’s meaning and significance, and helped him when you realized he was ready to accept it, by your suggestion. Do you follow me?

He felt it as a threat, rightly, while he was afraid to use his writing abilities in other forms, as he must. Only then will the true unity be apparent to him.

The money motive did help Ruburt in other areas, and led him to greater understanding while he always knew it had to be dispensed with. Do you follow me?