“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

In reference to my book’s theme now, the basic dilemma as well as its reasons and development, was quite available in Ruburt’s conscious mind all of that time. He chose not to deal with it however because he was not ready to face the problem, he did not feel himself capable. He was not ready to make the move.

The trouble is that when you refuse to deal with such quite available conscious problems, you begin to organize other pertinent material about the problem, and it also becomes taboo. It is a game you play with yourself. Because you will not face the material, you cannot counter it with other conscious ideas, or generate other emotional feelings that would help you.

They were not worked through, however, and he stopped the practice. Unknowingly you were working on the two levels given in my last session, through suggestion, building self-confidence while Ruburt wrote out his gripes and conscious thoughts. Until he produced Seven, however, he would not really consider facing the dilemma. Seven was the novel that showed him he could (underlined) write fiction.

The cold and the jaw difficulty—both of these were his physical interpretation of a growing crisis that had to be faced. He was ready to face the problem, to bring it out into the open, and the whole issue was finally brought out into the open through those symptoms. The critical period is over because of his recognition of the problem and his determination to face and solve it.

They must therefore be duly faced each day until they normally diminish into normal daily concern. Do not forget, in whatever way you choose to use it, the importance of reinforcing his sense of worth, despite what he does. The charge built up, for him (underlined) about time and work, is masking of course his fear of not achieving as he wants to. This is aside from normal practical considerations of time.

Now you two are in the clear, with the basic dilemma out, being acted upon, worked through and faced; but the habits must also be combated by Ruburt writing out those thoughts and feelings daily. The badminton important as given, as trivial as that may seem.

Now. I could not force Ruburt to face the dilemma until he felt he was ready to handle it—then he would see it as he does, now, as a challenge. All the other reasons given fit in. They were behind the reasons that he did not feel he could face the dilemma, but they partially masked it, also.

The fear then colored his other attitudes and reactions. His fear of the tooth pain was a physical interpretation of his fear of facing the dilemma, the pain of bringing it out into the open. Then he found it was not as bad as he thought—he could operate anyway, and amazingly well, as in class (ESP) last evening.

Now you have also been afraid that you could not do your own thing on your (underlined) own, so you acquiesced to the situation. You understood, though you would not face your understanding. Ruburt’s dilemma was quite clear to you. You felt you could not push him until he was ready.

I do indeed. The apartment situation was another symbol for moving—the physical one of impasse. It had to be faced on that level physically in your cases, before the other problem of mobility could come completely to light.

The physical changes however are supremely important, as physical materializations of inner ones. There are stresses now in terms of contracts and money, that Ruburt was not willing to face before. They are apparent now, and not masked. That is why the writing, as given, is important—that they be daily vented.

It is important that you feel free to move in all areas, and see the connection between all kinds of mobility, and face Ruburt’s practical considerations about turning down one contract while thinking about purchasing a house—and that is it for this evening.

Ruburt was quite conscious all the time about the reasons behind the symptoms. He just wasn’t ready to face it. This makes my book extremely valid.