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In reference to my book’s theme now, the basic dilemma as well as its reasons and development, was quite available in Ruburt’s conscious mind all of that time. He chose not to deal with it however because he was not ready to face the problem, he did not feel himself capable. He was not ready to make the move.

They were not worked through, however, and he stopped the practice. Unknowingly you were working on the two levels given in my last session, through suggestion, building self-confidence while Ruburt wrote out his gripes and conscious thoughts. Until he produced Seven, however, he would not really consider facing the dilemma. Seven was the novel that showed him he could (underlined) write fiction.

(9:30.) Certain ideas he has now are in a stage of transition still, a necessary stage. The tooth was meant to get his attention, to make him realize the importance of acting now. There will be no more great trouble with it. In a few days it will have completely disappeared. It is of great importance now however that he write down his thoughts as begun each day. It is not that he need concentrate on negative ideas. These are normal feelings and thoughts that gained such charge only because they were collected about the unfaced dilemma; whether or not he could make it on his own, or could afford the opportunity to try.

Now you two are in the clear, with the basic dilemma out, being acted upon, worked through and faced; but the habits must also be combated by Ruburt writing out those thoughts and feelings daily. The badminton important as given, as trivial as that may seem.

Now. I could not force Ruburt to face the dilemma until he felt he was ready to handle it—then he would see it as he does, now, as a challenge. All the other reasons given fit in. They were behind the reasons that he did not feel he could face the dilemma, but they partially masked it, also.

The fear then colored his other attitudes and reactions. His fear of the tooth pain was a physical interpretation of his fear of facing the dilemma, the pain of bringing it out into the open. Then he found it was not as bad as he thought—he could operate anyway, and amazingly well, as in class (ESP) last evening.

He had to realize his fear and his terrible dilemma in regard to Eleanor because it showed in concentrated form his own fear about his being able to succeed on his own, hence his dependence, that made him resent Eleanor. He had to work through that resentment.

Now you have also been afraid that you could not do your own thing on your (underlined) own, so you acquiesced to the situation. You understood, though you would not face your understanding. Ruburt’s dilemma was quite clear to you. You felt you could not push him until he was ready.