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In reference to my book’s theme now, the basic dilemma as well as its reasons and development, was quite available in Ruburt’s conscious mind all of that time. He chose not to deal with it however because he was not ready to face the problem, he did not feel himself capable. He was not ready to make the move.

The trouble is that when you refuse to deal with such quite available conscious problems, you begin to organize other pertinent material about the problem, and it also becomes taboo. It is a game you play with yourself. Because you will not face the material, you cannot counter it with other conscious ideas, or generate other emotional feelings that would help you.

The unacceptable conscious problem therefore collects great charges of correlated emotional feelings that also go unexpressed. The summer that Ruburt was better, he began writing down his feelings and thoughts. That helped release some of them, did therefore release him consciously, and lead directly to his later writing.

They were not worked through, however, and he stopped the practice. Unknowingly you were working on the two levels given in my last session, through suggestion, building self-confidence while Ruburt wrote out his gripes and conscious thoughts. Until he produced Seven, however, he would not really consider facing the dilemma. Seven was the novel that showed him he could (underlined) write fiction.

In two days Ruburt has become more aware of his problems consciously, and made connections that had (underlined) to be made. Future psychic work was also dependent upon a (in quotes) “correct” decision on his part.

Tam has great trust in me, in Ruburt’s work, and basically in himself. He has always gone along with Ruburt. Their connections are good in waking life, but their relationship goes far deeper. Some of their waking reactions are incongruous. They are sometimes delighted with each other, and yet sometimes feel, in meeting, a conscious sense of disappointment while experiencing an inner sense of recognition and joyful enthusiasm.

(Tam wrote Jane on January 2, 1973, asking for some material on his dream of the night before. In distorted form he picked up that Jane and I had decided on January 2 that Adventures in Consciousness would not be written or contracted; that in daytime working hours Jane was to go full steam ahead on her own writing, etc. Jane called him on the morning of the second of January. [Copy sent to Tam on January 12, 1973, of this portion.])

There is a connection between Aerofranz and Ruburt, as well as a connection between Tam and Nebene. Tam knew the purposes of Adventures from the beginning—as did Ruburt, but neither of them could act on that knowledge consciously, for it did not serve as yet their conscious purposes.

Tam received the basic message, though in the morning. He made several distortions, substituting you (RFB) and the book I suggested (Through My Eyes) rather than Ruburt and Adventures. He did this to give himself time on a conscious level to deal with the situation. Some time ago, after Seven, he mentioned my book, my new book, to Ruburt, and Ruburt said he did not want to contract trance material ahead of time, so Tam let it rest.

Ruburt was quite conscious all the time about the reasons behind the symptoms. He just wasn’t ready to face it. This makes my book extremely valid.