“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

I told you that as you considered moving your attitudes would suddenly become quite clear, and other issues would be deeply involved. (In the deleted data for December 18, 1972. True.) The idea of mobility in one direction, and of moving, would cause all of your other ideas to move.

For some time Ruburt felt he was a failure, as a wife and as a writer. He did not see you succeeding, either. Conditions mentioned far earlier made communication difficult, and he brooded. The mobility, the point of mobility, represented moving ahead in his work, or not moving ahead. The apartment became a symbol. It was quite all right for the aspiring writer. If however he could not achieve the kind of success he wanted, then he might as well have the trappings.

Now. Last summer, or rather the one before the flood (in June 1972) improvements were obvious (in 1971). The reasons you should know. The pressure of the dream book was gone. He was not doing something he did not want to do. The move (across the hall into our second apartment) meant mobility. Your relationship began to improve to an important degree.

He was between books, just having money from Seth Speaks. There were several things you had still not learned, however, that you have now learned. The relationship would be very good, then, but some old characteristic responses of ours would occur now and then, and frighten him. He began to move toward a new contract, which meant Adventures, he felt, rather than Rich Bed.

Now, the stairs represent going up and down on a treadmill, and getting nowhere. He seemed unable to move in any direction. This had to do with your apartment, which actually suited him fine for some time. But other dissatisfactions not faced were projected there also, and exaggerated, while there seemed to be nothing he could do about it.

Bill Macdonnel, coming at this time of year, did remind him of the first sessions and the ESP book and the tooth incident, caused physically by the sinuses, was a message that the time was crucial, a crisis. He had to say no, now, and move ahead in his own area.

(“What do you mean—a few weeks, a few months, or what?” I’d thought we would soon be moving.)

Because neither of you were willing to take the chance earlier, nor did you feel financially secure enough to do so. You were both willing to put up with the situation. The idea of physically moving automatically brought these issues into the light, and you helped Ruburt immensely. He would never have tried completely to write the book, but he could have struggled nearly halfway through—