“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(During break—I think this break—I told Jane and Rob of when I was very young—ten or eleven. My bedroom window was only about 15 feet away from my parents’ apt. house. The scandal at the time was the noisy and violent arguments of an Italian couple, Anna and Jimmy. If Anna didn`t boil Jimmy’s eggs just right, he’d curse her out, and she’d retaliate by throwing some of Mom’s dishes at him, both of them screaming. All thru my life I’ve thought “nice, civilized people” didn’t raise their voices, get angry enough so that it showed, or display any kind of outbursts. Jim, I believe, feels the same way [or did]. The very few times early in our marriage when I would lose my temper, he would absolutely infuriate me by saying softly, with a smirk, “Temper, temper!” and so I would clam up.)

What our friend here told you (Rob) is indeed true. You must realize that you are a unique and a blessed individual, and you must be as kind to yourself, and kinder, even, than you try to be to others. For they also bathe in the joy that you feel. It is most important that you understand this.

If you do that, it is fine. But it is not as important as the painting. Doing things for other people is important, but doing things, as our friend (Rob) said, for yourself is imperative.

([Seth and Rob:] “Dressing in the morning.”

Take your paints outside sometime. Think! How precious voices are! In your terms, they speak, and the sounds are gone and never recaptured. And who are you to say: “I will not listen, for this is trivial.” These sounds are magic. Be thankful for them. You will never again be the personality that you are at this moment. Whatever self you will be, in your terms, or you were, each of those selves are unique, as you are unique. When you hear him (Rob) speak, his words are the magical signatures of the psyche, materialized in certain ways within this moment as you understand a time, and precious and a joy to hear. And so are the words of every man and woman, and the sound of every bird and every raindrop—precious beyond recall. So do not close yourselves to those sounds, and be thankful for them.

([Rob:] “Foot.”)

(I kept tape open a bit for Rob.

([Rob:] “...the question would automatically answer itself —about your operation. Did you remember that?”

([Rob:] “Seth said you could make up your own mind about the operation.”

Then, I bid you a fond good evening. And my heartiest regards to my friend over there (Rob), who did not have to take any notes this evening.

(I showed Jane and Rob a little artwork, and my two Pennsylvania scrapbooks, and left a little before midnight with a great deal to think about!)