1 result for (book:tps2 AND heading:"delet session februari 26 1972" AND stemmed:would)
6/34 (18%)
repressed
release
ambiguous
conscientious
Elgersma
[... 4 paragraphs ...]
(Jane suggested this session abruptly, after 9:40 or so; I thought it would deal with what we had talked about today.)
[... 1 paragraph ...]
Unconsciously you feel that because you are the oldest son you should be the money-maker, in your mother’s eyes; but she never considered painting as such as financially rewarding. You still do not want to hurt her feelings. You are still trying to be yourself and the self you think she wants you to be, as far as you are able. Certain concessions for example you would never make, but you are still unconsciously bothered here, whether you know it or not.
[... 5 paragraphs ...]
Now, because it seemed to you for so long that you could not move freely in your own life, that you did not paint full time, you got in the habit of automatically viewing all change as negative. You could not do it anyway. To realize its possibilities therefore would have been a torment. So recognize that element and its reasons now.
The effort made in any creative change would be nothing compared to the constant feeling of unease that could result simply from a fear of change. In a fear of change there is only tumult, and no peace. As you know, it does no good to worry about the time you may sometimes feel was “wasted” (in quotes) in the past. Great damage can result however by projecting such feelings of time waste into the future.
[... 2 paragraphs ...]
You have a relationship not only unique, the two of you, but one that also serves as a springboard for creativity. You have talents and abilities that carry with them satisfactions that you both often blithely take for granted. They are so a part of your existence that often you are not even aware of them, yet their absence would show you the relative darkness in which the majority of people live.
You are not financially in any desperate need. By many standards even Ruburt’s health would be considered excellent. A concentration upon the healthy parts of his body will help increase his health. That is the point I am trying to make here. Be thankful for what you do have, and it will be increased.
[... 15 paragraphs ...]