“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

The basic discontent colored your other attitudes, both toward your environment, your own work, and other people. (Very good.)

—built up by unsolved problems. A concentration upon your individual and combined work, your practical plans in that direction, will promote an enthusiasm that you have not felt jointly or individually in years. You will know that you are on the right track.

Your own attitude was partially set by your father’s innate and quite strong sense of independence. He hated to work for anyone else. The same applies to Ruburt’s background, mainly with his grandfather. You would have felt freer had you tried to freelance; for freelancing, while it would have produced long range its own problems would have allowed you a greater sense of freedom.

Ruburt did not have, again, those influences working on him that worked on you to prolong the situation. Danger signals only too apparently showed with you as soon as you accepted full-time work. They became unbearable, and you quite the course quickly. The part-time course filled some of those other mentioned subsidiary needs however, so this you found more bearable.

Part of the difficulty is that it has become a symbol of Ruburt’s disabilities at this point. At home the stairs are the symbols. After working one day, Ruburt expects instant results. Now there have been results. As you begin to make your own work plans, and work, this will also generate results. Remember the encounter (of February 19)—it was with a part of both of your personalities, not only Ruburt’s.

I suggest that you do some sketching. Now. As you progress our sessions can also be freed for other endeavors. As the natural flow of your energies returns to your work, so will greater energy be released in the sessions as well. The part of the sessions in your lives as applied to your Elmira existence so far will be covered at another time. Obviously there is a connection, you see. And now—I bid you a fond good evening.