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Ruburt’s energies will be released in the same way. I am sure that you appreciated the encounter that took place the other evening, under my auspices. (On February 19.) What was said should show you that Ruburt’s condition also became the focus of your combined discontents, the physical picture of it. The energy to maintain it, almost (underlined) in direct proportion to your combined discontents, was composed of the displaced energy not put into your prime purposes. This is difficult to verbalize precisely—

The symptoms therefore will be released as that energy or concentration is placed back where it belongs, into creative and practical action. You felt as if you could not move also, and before Ruburt’s symptoms began. You felt this psychologically; do you follow me?

Your discussion this evening was beneficial and showed a point in progress on both of your parts. Earlier Ruburt would have become alarmed and frightened, felt you were being negative, and discouraged at any verbal and emotional encounter with the feelings that you expressed, precisely because they brought into the open feelings of his. This time however he recognized that earlier he would have brooded and gone to bed, leaving you to brood alone at his ways.

A point, if you do not want a break now: Concentration must not be on Ruburt’s symptoms. Underline many times.

A point now that I want you to heed in advance: In the past, because of joint negative attitudes, I have given the reasons for some of these. Improvements in Ruburt’s condition were ignored (underlined) largely by both of you, and instead concentration was upon the symptoms that still remained.

Your own attitude was partially set by your father’s innate and quite strong sense of independence. He hated to work for anyone else. The same applies to Ruburt’s background, mainly with his grandfather. You would have felt freer had you tried to freelance; for freelancing, while it would have produced long range its own problems would have allowed you a greater sense of freedom.

Here you were influenced, where Ruburt was not, toward a job because of ideas of security that came from your mother, and, despite your conscious evaluations, from the activities of your brothers. Your having a job made sense to you therefore for these reasons, more so than it did to Ruburt, who had no such countering influences. Now give me a moment. (Pause at 10:27.)

The entire environment concerning your brothers’ homes, and the implications, always upset Ruburt, for he sensed that influence.

To you a part-time job helped compensate. You feared losing status in your family’s eyes by casting yourself completely aside into areas alien to them. You also felt that this would equate you in your mother’s eyes with your father. She, your mother, went with the main stream. Your father did not. You did not want to hurt her feelings particularly in the beginning. Your mother did think of Ruburt as a threat, for she recognized at once that Ruburt would not encourage the tendencies that she herself respected.

All of this I tell you because it should help clear up some of the reasons for your actions. Beside Ruburt’s “natural leaning” (in quotes) characteristic dislike of families then, there was the “outsiders” argument, and you were often put in the middle.

Your family to Ruburt was one of society trying to make you toe the mark, hence his often exaggerated reactions. As you know, spontaneously Ruburt would state your position to your family as a symbolic statement to the world at large for those reasons.

Ruburt did not have, again, those influences working on him that worked on you to prolong the situation. Danger signals only too apparently showed with you as soon as you accepted full-time work. They became unbearable, and you quite the course quickly. The part-time course filled some of those other mentioned subsidiary needs however, so this you found more bearable.

Ruburt also of course knew this, as he knew about your curly-headed friend the other night (at the Hurricane bar, amused), and he reacted vehemently, particularly against your parents. To help support your mother, particularly in the beginning under the situation as he sensed it, and with all of his other anti-mother sentiments, was the greatest of outrages. This is another reason for his actions on the Sunday visits. Hopefully, this will help you both understand.

Now we will shortly close. I want to remind you however that I went to considerable pains to give you some of the important reasons why you both had a tendency, a strong one, toward repression. Why Ruburt began by repressing unpleasant ideas, and why you initially began by repressing hopeful ones.

Now. If you understand the reasons, and do as I have suggested then you will be involved with the real issues, not basically (underlined) superficial ones—like why does Ruburt have trouble going down the step.

Part of the difficulty is that it has become a symbol of Ruburt’s disabilities at this point. At home the stairs are the symbols. After working one day, Ruburt expects instant results. Now there have been results. As you begin to make your own work plans, and work, this will also generate results. Remember the encounter (of February 19)—it was with a part of both of your personalities, not only Ruburt’s.

Remind me at our next session to say something about spontaneity and scheduling, as applied to your daily lives. Ruburt does not like scheduling from without, applied from the outside, in other words. And neither do you.