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You, personally, have been gravely perturbed because of your job for some time. You tried to shove the discontent aside, hoping that you could continue it to practical beneficial ends. You were to some extent outraging a portion of your being, for whatever reasons.

It became—relatively now—a displaced discontent. You felt that there was nothing you could do about the situation, that there was no reason to worry about it, but the anxiety was displaced then, draining your energies.

A point now that I want you to heed in advance: In the past, because of joint negative attitudes, I have given the reasons for some of these. Improvements in Ruburt’s condition were ignored (underlined) largely by both of you, and instead concentration was upon the symptoms that still remained.

Here you were influenced, where Ruburt was not, toward a job because of ideas of security that came from your mother, and, despite your conscious evaluations, from the activities of your brothers. Your having a job made sense to you therefore for these reasons, more so than it did to Ruburt, who had no such countering influences. Now give me a moment. (Pause at 10:27.)

All of this I tell you because it should help clear up some of the reasons for your actions. Beside Ruburt’s “natural leaning” (in quotes) characteristic dislike of families then, there was the “outsiders” argument, and you were often put in the middle.

Your family to Ruburt was one of society trying to make you toe the mark, hence his often exaggerated reactions. As you know, spontaneously Ruburt would state your position to your family as a symbolic statement to the world at large for those reasons.

Ruburt also of course knew this, as he knew about your curly-headed friend the other night (at the Hurricane bar, amused), and he reacted vehemently, particularly against your parents. To help support your mother, particularly in the beginning under the situation as he sensed it, and with all of his other anti-mother sentiments, was the greatest of outrages. This is another reason for his actions on the Sunday visits. Hopefully, this will help you both understand.

Now we will shortly close. I want to remind you however that I went to considerable pains to give you some of the important reasons why you both had a tendency, a strong one, toward repression. Why Ruburt began by repressing unpleasant ideas, and why you initially began by repressing hopeful ones.

Now. If you understand the reasons, and do as I have suggested then you will be involved with the real issues, not basically (underlined) superficial ones—like why does Ruburt have trouble going down the step.