“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

There are some things I believe you understand about your lovely companion. One thing however is a great consistency that escapes you, beneath all the shifting guises of his behavior.

He has several important gifts of character, now, as separate from abilities. One is enduring persistence, massive inner intensity directed toward his goals. There is also an ability to endure unpleasantness, or even pain, if he believes it is for a great-enough principle.

He felt you resented his being home. You used to say “You don’t know what it is to punch a time clock,” he thought resentfully. He took it as an accusation. He felt deeply that you had no one but yourself to blame if you did not quit. The money was there to be used, and you were blaming him when he did not deserve it to that degree.

The morning symptoms are clearly related to the fact that you work mornings. The exaggerated weekend symptoms are related to two factors: One, the chores that he feels you thoroughly resent, and two, the Sunday situation when your mother is home. He feels that all of you are not being kind to her, merely supporting her, to bolster up your own ideas of yourselves as sons. This also has to do with disruptions not connected with your work, for which he has no patience.

He felt that it was inevitable, or should be, for you at one time to devote yourself to your painting, that you knew this, that is was always ahead of you, and that it was being unnecessarily put off.

He was afraid that you would grow more deeply to resent this, and that you would not rouse yourself in time to do what you must do. In the beginning he was afraid of taking the chance, but not taking the chance became finally unbearable. He was afraid you would not do it. He did not want to be the one to apply the stimulus. He wanted that to come from you.

After a pause Jane said, “There’s more. That’s all you got, but there’s more to it.” This was another surprise. At 11:30 she went back into the Sumari trance and delivered the balance of the poem. It isn’t included here since she has made her own copies for her Sumari notebook, of this one and the three poems that subsequently followed. My original notes contain a list of the times each poem took – only a few minutes – plus a few comments. The session ended at 12:15 AM.