“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Jane was quite relaxed this evening, hence our late start. We had gone Christmas shopping this afternoon, etc.)

I will make the remarks concerning yesterday first. Ruburt was in poor shape yesterday. You helped him because he was aware of your love and concern. You did (underlined) make that obvious. He knew you were making every effort to provide your end of a merry Christmas, with the tree, etc.

His condition was the result of denying feelings and trying to hold them back again, so as not to upset the apple cart. The feelings were told to shut up. They were not intelligent. They were beneath consideration. They were not approved of, and intellectually Ruburt silenced them, before giving them adequate voice or expression.

The loving encounter of this evening was extremely beneficial, and I mentioned the value right after the last such episode. The combination of love and physical touch, and the inner intent, is highly important. Reread what I told you, it will save us time, regarding the way in which emotions are buried within the body, and at your loving touch given release.

A day like today is extremely significant to both of you, for it builds up inner confidence, particularly on Ruburt’s part. Even your (underlined) behavior yesterday, while not what it might have been, was supportive enough to keep the situation from getting out of hand, and the memory of your night’s dancing was also supportive, so that you have more supportive elements to cushion various situations.

In fact, your behavior yesterday was so appreciated that it led to the creative inspiration of your Christmas present, which is an exciting creative endeavor. I dare not say more. (Humorously.

(This was Jane’s inspiration to write a series of songs for me in Sumari. This development promises many excellent ramifications.)

Your visit to class (Tuesday, December 14) meant much to Ruburt, and to the other students. By your complete absence, you see, you also led them to suspect that you disapproved, for they knew that in your other activities psychically you worked together. It was a symbolic gesture then of importance. You also did not attend until the Sumari development.

Ruburt was glad many times that a man found her attractive when she did not see that answering glimmer in your eye—not that it was entirely your fault, now.

I told you, in the context given, that Ruburt was emotionally deprived, this showing in the physical condition. That you were also to some extent, this showing in your work.

The beloved monster lost weight, looked neglected, lost his luster, became listless unless forced into activity, looked older. Now, he was suddenly deprived of his position. The emotional energy usually given him automatically was transferred elsewhere. You saw the sudden change. He also became in his own way obstinate.

He carries no grudges. When the condition was arighted he began miraculously springing back to normal.